ACNE : WHEN NOTHING WORKS ANYMORE!

Assalammualaikum and Hi People!

Previously, I had posted a few of my writings with regards of acne skin problems. Some may come across to my blog due to facing the same problem and some may not. This time I would like to update   my acne-prone skin to the world where nothing works anymore to resolve my issue. Dermatologist treatment, didn't work. Steroid medications. temporary only. High end products, waste of fortune. Exercises, nothing has changed. 

What has changed lately was, I suffered Atelophobia- fear of imperfection. I was mocked, laughed at and given some shitty names. I cannot handle myself to be in public without the fear of people judging my face. I have been doing HIIT workout for quite sometimes now but it did not improve my acne problem which I thought when I get fit and active, my acne would be gone too. Luckily, my body getting firm and fit. I want to be an acne-free person, pretty please!!

On September 16, my aunty brought me to consult her friend, Dr Yasmeen Farouk. Frankly speaking, I did not know how great she is until my friend recently told me that Dr Yasmeen is popular with her 'living healthily in natural way' talks and books. During my consultation with her, she asked me about my blood type, common health problems that I am having, my diet and my lifestyle. She explained to me what causes to my current health problems in a clear and eye-opening way. Never thought that my acne worsen because of my bad diet even though I had an active lifestyle. All of my former dermatologists and beauticians never give and able to give this kind of explanation and correlation. They just prescribed me with medicines and products that had costed me quite a fortune. Puff....typical medical salesman! Opps..

Here is the 'golden list' and healthy way to heal my acne which I can sum up and share with all of you:
1- My Blood type : AB+; prone to have digestion problem.
2- Common health problems; constipation & bloated, Acne prone skin and eczema, & hard to lose  weight.
3- My Diet : under controlled; meats, veggies & fruits, carbs and fats
4- My lifestyle : HIIT workout, Pilates and toning.

Dr Yasmeen suggestions/diet plans for me to follow in 2-3 months:

1- Take Vitamin C every 4 hours during the day, daily.
2- Drink a lot of water and green tea.
3- Avoid all kind of meats and seafood; ONLY Fish is allowed.
4- Avoid all kind of diary products.
5- Avoid all kind of refined sugar; candies, sodas and desserts.
6- Avoid PEANUT.
7- Avoid yeast-contained products.
8- Eat a lot of green veggies and green juice twice a day & yellow juice once at night.
9- Avoid greasy and fried foods. I know it's hurt!
10- Avoid processed and canned foods at all course.

Here is the list of her product purchased:

Wonder Water Face Wash + Toner @RM75
It smells nice and leaves my face a cool and fresh sensation.
It's natural. 

Dr Yasmeen Organic Roasted Green Tea with brown rice @RM90/10 bags
1 teabag x 15 uses/cups.
This is the mildest green tea I ever had and it contains low acid that suits my weak intestines.
Its japanese name is Genmaicha.

Dr Yasmeen Brightening Moisturiser @RM220
New developed product.
Water based and non-sticky.
Smells citrussy. 

My Every First: Transport Accidents

Assalammualaikum and Hi People,

Todayyy, I would like to talk about my first experience of transport accident. Thankfully it was not a bloody shed missing limb kind of accident. I was and am still in one piece and saved and sound even though my hands and legs trembled and went numb. I have three stories here but I will let you decide which one is going to be my first encounter.

Story 1

When I was a kid, I kept changing school. I did not know why but I believed my parents knew what they were doing. At the age of 7, I went to a private school somewhere near my house. Both of my parents went to work and I was left with my nanny. Every morning, the academy's van would fetch me and I was the first one so I would have to seat in front at the passenger seat. One thing I could remember being in the van was the speed. The driver was a lunatic. She had drove recklessly and gave us heart attack at the young age of 7. One unlucky morning, while travelling on our routine route heading to the school, she had drove at 70KM/hour(guessed) and was going to make a turn. Without any further hesitation, she made a turn and ramped into a motorcyclist. It was a young man and he was flown a few metres in the air due to the hard impact right in front of my eyes.  I was so shock and my head bang-ed the dashboard. Even though it happened in a quick seconds but I remembered everything. I heard my friends cried and terrible screams from the lady driver. I did not cry nor scream. I was just lost my tongue and confused due to the hard impact. Luckily, the man got onto his feet and walked slowly and hinged to his motorcycle. One of his hand was bent and wounded. Blood stained his shirt and pant. I knew he was terribly injured but the irresponsible lady driver did not step out to help him. He got his strength to ride back on his motorcycle and went away after giving an angry look to the person next to me. I guesses he went to the clinic. I made a report to my teacher and they called my parents and they took me home. The academy fired that lunatic driver and I changed to another school after my final exam.

Story 2

When I was 8, I went to my new school by bus. It was around 6.30 in the morning and it was still dark outside. I seated sleepily in my seat and then I heard loud thud, metal crushed and emergency breaks. I knocked my head to the seat in front of me due to the sudden stop. The bus had just ran over an innocent student who rode her bicycle. There were cusses, cries and screaming out there but we were told to remain seated and silent. The sudden stop had caused me wide awoken and curiosity filled the air inside the bus. Luckily, I was on the wrong side of window so I did not witnessed the accident, the students on the other side of window kept me updated and retold the whole story from the beginning. Thankfully, even there were some blood spilled but the student was saved. It was a close shaved. 

Story 3

It has been a long time since I did not involve in any bloody accident but in 2015, during my first week of internship at the age of 22, I knocked someone's car. My parents were travelled to Turkey and I was left under my brother supervision. I drove my mom's CRV and I knocked a Peugeot, a back hit. Damnnn, daddy is going to kill me. It was happened when I drove to a small hill and was not aware that the Peugeot had stopped but the brake lights was off. I remembered step on the brake pedal until it touched the floor but my car was not stopped and boom, I hit the Peugeot. Even though I wore seat belt, my chest knocked the steering wheel and I swear it was hurt like you jump in the air but wrongly landed on your front. I cannot breath and my hands were shuddered and my mind clouded. I did not know how to react and what to do. I phoned my brother but he did not answer and I called my aunty who lived near by and I called my supervisor. He rushed to the scene after my cousin, but he left me without any further action. My cousin talked to the Peugeot driver and we went to make a police report. The statement written was unfair and I was blamed for the hit just because I was at the back and the fact of the Peugeot's brake light was not working was erased. F*** S***... I was fined for $300 and the insurance covered all but cost thousands of course and yes, the news travelled  thousand miles to reach my parents and they were shocked but relieved.

Cerita Kahwin2 Lagi?

Assalammualaikum and Hi people!

How is your life? Good, alhamdulillah. Mine, just the same though. Kali ini, aku nak berkongsi secebis episod dalam kehidupan aku. Baru-baru ini, Siti Athirah Mohd Nasir, seorang teman rapat aku dari kecil merangkap sebagai sepupu aku melangsungkan perkahwinan beliau. Kami memang sangat rapat dan aku ada menyediakan satu teks confession khas untuk dia. Aku tak tahu mana datang keberanian dan segan silu nak buat confession depan ratusan tetamu undangan tapi yang pasti aku menggigil masa buat perangai tu. 

Buat masa ni, sudah beberapa kawan aku yang melangsungkan perkahwinan. Aku happy dan meraikan keputusan mereka untuk memulakan hidup baru sebagai seorang isteri. Membuat keputusan untuk berkahwin bukanlah satu keputusan yang mudah dan aku percaya, mereka memerlukan kekuatan dan sokongan dari pelbagai sudut termasuklah yang Maha Esa. Persiapan dari segi mental dan fizikal juga diperlukan.

Nak dijadikan cerita, tahun 2016 dan 2017 merupa tahun kemuncak di mana kebanyakan sepupu aku akan melangkah ke dunia perkahwinan. Tidak dinafikan, duduk dalam majlis sebegini, ramai yang menanyakan bilakan giliran aku? Jawapannya In syaa Allah kalau jodoh sudah sampai. Jujur aku katakan, aku belum bertemu jodoh, aku tak bersedia dan aku tak sekuat mereka. Dengan pelbagai masalah dalaman dan emosi, aku merasakan yang diri aku tidak layak untuk sesiapa. Aku belum cukup rapat dengan Maha Pencipta, bagaimana pula aku boleh terfikir untuk rapat dengan orang. Terngiang-ngiang pesanan dari salah seorang mak cik aku bila aku diajukan soal jodoh;

“ Kita ni kena percaya Qada’ dan Qadar. Awak kena mula berdoa agar dijodohkan dengan pasangan yang baik, beriman, berharta, berbudi dan yang penting mampu bimbing awak ke jalan Allah. Selain doa, awak kena la berusaha agar jodoh tu datang dekat; persiapkan diri. Contohnya, jadi diri awak cuma jadi yang lebih baik dan terbaik. Serikan diri dan manjakan diri. Lama-lama awak sendiri suka dengan perubahan yang berlaku. Tak perlu nak rasa rendah diri sangat.”

Mak Ani, nama panggilan untuknya. Bagaikan tahu yang aku memang berperang dengan perasaan aku sendiri. Buat la macam mana pun, aku tetap yang paling selekeh dalam kalangan sepupuku yang lain. Dah cuba yang terbaik namun aku tetap kelihatan hodoh. Ya, walaupun aku boleh membangkitkan semangat orang lain tapi hakikatnya tiada siapa yang mendengar luahan aku. Hanya padaNya aku bercerita dan the truth is written but never been said.

Living A Life Diary: Mencari Jodoh atau Dijodohkan?

Assalammualaikum dan Hi,

Post hari ini mengenai jodoh; tidak kira sama ada bakal suami atau bakal isteri. Perancangan manakah yang lebih baik, dijodohkan atau mencari jodoh sendiri? Semua ini berbalik kepada pandangan masing-masing. Ada yang berpendapat, pasangan yang dijodohkan itu lebih baik kerana pilihan orang tua itu lebih tepat kerana 'instinct' mereka sebagai ibu bapa kita. Tetapi ada pandangan lain mengatakan, mencari jodoh sendiri itu lebih baik sebab yang nak kahwin itu kita jadi adalah lebih wajar kita mengenali pasangan kita dahulu sebelum melangkah ke alam perkahwinan.

Sejujurnya aku sendiri tidak pasti tetapi aku ada cerita sesuatu dalam post kali ini. Bakal jodoh aku. Aku gunakan perkataan bakal sebab ianya sesuatu yang tidak pasti dan belum disahkan. Membesar dalam keluarga yang strict, aku kurang bergaul dengan kaum adam melainkan dengan sepupu-sepapat aku yang majoritinya adalah lelaki. Masa aku kecil, aku memang lasak dan tomboy. Tetapi semua tu berubah 360 darjah selepas aku baligh aka period. Mama mula control pergaulan aku dan itu membuatkan aku segan dengan kaum adam. Aku dimasukkan ke single-gender school dan ianya membentuk perwatakan aku hari ini; feminism. Masuk ke alam universiti, aku tidak menghalang mana-mana lelaki yang mahu dekat cuma aku tidak memberi respon jadinya semua perhubungan aku gagal. Mama pesan supaya aku habiskan degree ni dahulu, sebelum nak fikir cari pasangan hidup dan sebab ini jugalah niat aku untuk mencari pasangan telah terkubur walaupun aku telah memegang dua degree scrolls.  Sunyi tu memang la sunyi nak-nak masa tengah stress atau sakit. Takde si dia yang prihatin atau ambil berat pasal diri ini. Tapi aku diamkan saja. Sehinggalah mama bertemu dengan sepasang suami isteri ini di Kursus Bakal Pesara UiTM di Langkawi. 

Mereka tinggal sekampung dengan nenek dan nenek memang kenal dengan keluarga mereka ini. Oleh sebab sikap sambil lewa, aku hanya tahu panggilan untuk si isteri; Ummi. Suami beliau adalah pesara tentera dan pesara UiTM. Ada 2 anak gadis 1 teruna. Salah satu anak gadis meraka adalah senior aku di Universiti dan anak teruna mereka adalah seorang doktor muda yang baru memulakan housemanship di Hospital P, nama nya H. Sudah 2 tahun berturut-turut akan beraya ke rumah mereka. Masa kali pertama datang tu, mereka terus pelawa ke meja makan dengan pelbagai juadah dihidangkan, Ummi dan Abi serta anak teruna mereka turut serta. Oleh kerana perwatakan ummi yang happy-go-lucky  dan banyak mulut, aku jadi selesa dengan dengan keluarga mereka. Bila dah selesa, aku pun mula pok pek pok pek bercerita dari kuih tart nenas hingga ke biskut lidah kucing super expensive tu. Masa tu, H tengah bercuti semester akhir medical school di Kaherah dan aku pula semester 4 Political Science School di UiTM. Sampai ke hari ni, aku tak mampu nak pandang muka dia sebab aku rasa aku ni kecil sangat dan bukan muslimah sangat; pakai tudung pun masih nampak jambul. Selepas bertemuan itu, mama dan baba sudah tepaut dengan keramahan keluarga mereka dan mula berkias-kias mahu menjodohkan antara aku dan H. Tetapi aku hanya bersikap sambil lewa sebab itu hanya angan mereka sahaja, tetapi jauh disudut hati aku tetap ada rasa gembira.

Raya kedua, tahun lepas kami bertandang lagi ke rumah ummi. Kali ini H sudah betul-betul pulang ke Malaysia dan aku sudah habis final exam semester akhir. Masa kami datang, H baru sahaja pulang beraya bersama kawan-kawan sekampung dia dan H ada bakar Lasagna untuk dijamukan pada kawan-kawannya. Menurut cerita ummi, majority kawan-kawan H teruja dengan humble comfort food tu sebab mereka mungkin tidak pernah cuba sebelum ni. Kalau korang nak tahu, Lasagna adalah salah satu makan kegemaran aku dan sebulan sekali mesti aku akan bakar 2-3 loyang. Aku nak sangat cuba lasagna yang H buat tapi disebabkan terlampau segan, aku pendamkan saja. Padahal masa tu, parents aku dah tolak-tolak tangan aku untuk kaup lasagna tu. Aku takut lepas makan lasagna dia, aku jatuh hati pulak; dari perut naik ke hati hahahaha. Dalam kereta, semua gelakkan aku bila aku guna alasan tu untuk tidak tergoda dengan lasagna H. Lawak bodoh.

Masa abang aku kahwin, Ummi, Abi dan H ada datang. Dia nampak lain benar. Pakaian nya kemas, badannya susut dan bertambah kacak tapi aku tetap tak mampu nak pandang muka dia. Mama dah pesan supaya aku mengenakan pakaian yang kemas sikit sebab nak layan kawan-kawan yang bertandang especially ummi sekeluarga. Tapi aku entah kenapa agak malas untuk melaram sebab aku lebih suka jadi floor manager dari melayan tetamu VIP. Maka, nampak la antara dua darjatnya antara aku dan H. Aku ada la borak-borak sikit dengan ummi yang selebihnya mama dan baba. Aku sibuk mengangkat pinggan dan cawan sebab penanggah caterer langsung tak boleh harap. Bila ummi sekeluarga sudah berangkat pulang, mama berkongsi cerita dengan makcik-makcik aku yang lain bahawasanya H itulah gerangan yang mahu dijodohkan dengan aku. Semua pakat mengusik aku, tetapi aku tahu itu hanyalah angan semata. Kalau bertepuk sebelah tangan manakan berbunyi. Aku tidak mengharapkan lebih, andai ada jodoh antara kami, aku akan cuba perbaiki dan persiapkan mental dan fizikal tetapi sebelum semua itu terjadi, biarlah mereka terus bersama angan semata. Banyak lagi impian yang aku dan dia mahu kejar. Gerbang perkahwinan masih kabur pada kaca mata kami dan aku masih terlalu jauh untuk menyaingi dia.

Living A Life Diary: Mother-Daughter Toxic Relation

Assalammualaikum and Hi people!

This entry may not be suitable for happy and cheerful people as it contains disappointment, anger and tears. I believe most of the people out there have, used to have and going to be a mother. I am going to talk on my perspective as a daughter because I am way to far from being a mother. 

Growing up in my family is tough not because we are lacking in financial but affection and love are lacking here. Don't judge I am not grateful but this situation here shapes who I am today and in the future so I need to find the solution to reduce the effect. I don't know if this is the culture in Malay society or Malaysian culture but this is what happened in my family; we are prone to showing less of our love towards each other but showing respect is a most till I came out with a theory that I respect my parents because I have to not because I love to. 

There is no compliment and praise in my family even I'm doing excel in school. There is no hug and kiss. There is no bonding time like sitting and discussing what happened in one another's day or week plus no pep talk. I used to tell my mother about problems in school, friends and boys but I got scolded so I stop talking to her. I would always love to have time talking to her about life of an independent woman but she just shut me out. When ever I wanted to help her in the kitchen she would always kick me out but rather letting my sissy and brother helping her out. She would always complaining I didn't help her much doing chores. What on earth! I do the laundry, sweep the floor, brush the toilet, scoop cat shit and wax the floor and yet she said I'm not helping her at all.  One thing that I can't understand until now, how come she can smile and laughing when my sissy and brother around but getting sour and jumpy when with me? You tell me how can I growing up in this situation without hurting our relationship? 

As I'm getting older and left home for study; not seeing each other very much in a year, our relationship is preserved in a good way. There is no shouting, door slamming and even tears. When we were on the phone, I could casually saying I miss her and I love her but We don't do it when we were face to face. I am comfortable getting away. Where is the paternal responsibility here? Oh, my father would always come between us when mom and I quarrelling. He didn't say much but his presence would clear the mess. He would take me away from mom and cheer me out rather consoling my mother until one day I am getting so comfortable talking to him about our problems, my problems and my mom's problems. His only answer was 'I married to her for more than 30 years now, we don't talk when we have the problem with one another and we just shut each other's down. If I can stand with her this long, you could stay with her to. We both can change her but we can try the least by adapting with her even though she isn't always right. She is your mother after all'.

Recently, we had the third biggest quarrel. My sissy is getting into college and I had to do her administration including financial support seeking. One day, I talked to mom, why is it only me stressing out of sweat and run the errands, it is not me who is going to uni this time? She replied ' you know what, if you are not sincerely doing this then you better stop, you are her sister and that is your job as a family!' I was totally upset with her, slammed the car's door and walked towards the bank. When I came out, she is gone. When I called her, she didn't answer. I called my dad and here she came. She was in tears and hell mad at me. She was throwing lots of anger and words. One thing that I remembered the most was ' What have I done in the past to be given a child like you, I prayed all nights so you can be a good child of mine but why you ended up like this, so ungrateful and rude. It is so disappointing to have a child like you and why don't you just kill if you don't like your stupid mother, I am your stupid mother that is what you always think of me. Why you would always comparing how I treat my children, why you think I treat you differently.' By the way, dad called in the middle of the fight, tears were all over my face and he heard my mother and told me to pull over. My mom did pull over and kick me out of her car and later my dad picked me up.

After that fight, I had less spoken with her and to be in one room with her is so awkward. There is no sorry after I said 'good bye ma' when she kicked me out. We did act normally as mother and daughter because that is what we supposed to do. Mom playing her role as a mother and I am playing mine as a daughter. Until today, I can't look her in the eyes and she is showing some signs that she doesn't want me near. Since my sissy left, I can count how many times we ate together. She always leave me while she's going for shopping or somewhere. She is totally shut me out of her zone. My mother refused to bonding with me.

The aftermath, if I were married one day with my other half, I don't want to have a child. The impact of what she did to me, I don't want it happens to my children. I don't want them to feel how I feel; ignored, unloved, divided, left behind. If this is karma, I don't want it to cycle in my family and my generation. I need to stop that.

Acne 101: Is Exercising Can Give You Pimple?

Assalammualaikum and Hello People!

To have a better life, I have been regularly exercising almost everyday for 30-60 minutes. Plus, I am currently eating healthy and clean diet. However, I was quite surprise my face was covered with acne! Oh dear, don't get me wrong. Don't stop exercising because it can cause you acne. Today, I would like to share with you whether exercising and acne are interrelated or not?

Exercising makes you sweating. While sweat is made mostly of water, with small amounts of ammonia, urea, salts and sugar. When you sweat, these impurities are flushed from your skin. But what does that mean for people who are prone to acne? It might help, but it doesn't necessarily hurt, say the experts at the Children’s Hospital of Colorado (CHC). Sweat in itself neither fights acne nor causes it; but the increased blood flow, unclogging of pores from sweating, and stress reduction that result from exercise may all benefit the acne sufferer, says the CHC.

However, there's long been a rumor that a good sweat will actually clean out your pores, but science says that's not the case. Sweat glands and oil pores are two different things, so not only does sweat not clean out oil pores, but it might actually make things worse. For one, irritants like dust and dirt are more likely to stick to moist skin, which can lead to clogged pores. Here is how acne develops:

In simple word, exercising is good for your skin as the activity flush out toxins from your body through your sweat glands however, dirt and bacteria can still clog up your oil pores as it enjoy humid and  moist surface. What you want to avoid is doing anything to exacerbate skin problems or cause irritation. So, please do not stop exercising and there are ways to combat the acne caused by bacteria and dirt by following my tips below.

1- Avoid tight clothing. Avoid wearing clothing that rubs against your skin during exercise, and if you wear a helmet, hat, sunglasses or other protective equipment while you move, clean it often as these sweaty surfaces can collect dirt and oil that can be transferred to your skin. Wear lightweight, breathable and unrestrictive clothing and change out of it soon after a tough workout.

2- Wash your hands. To avoid spreading germs, wipe equipment down before and after use and wash your hands after you work out. Bring along your hand-sanitiser or anti-bacterial wipes can be very useful. Ignore what other people might think about you (germ-freak) as this habit may prevent you from getting any serious diseases.

3- Avoid touching your face. Touching your skin increases the risk of clogging your pores with bacteria and oils, especially if your hands are already picking up bacteria and germs from touching workout equipment. If you need to wipe excess sweat, blot your skin with a clean, dry towel and avoid rubbing or wiping the skin with your hands, shirt or towel. For those with longer hair, wearing hair back and keeping your hair or bangs off of your face can prevent additional dirt and oil from clogging your pores.

4-Cleanse gently. To prevent acne flare-ups and scars, gently clean your skin with a mild cleanser twice a day (morning and night) and after heavy exercise. Fight your bad fats and cellulite then take a deep-cleanse shower afterward. Use anti-bacterial soap would be helpful. Disinfect your workout cloths, equipments, towels, bottles and everything can prevent you from bacteria. 

5-Hydrate. Drink plenty of H20 to replace water lost during workouts. Proper hydration will keep your entire body functioning properly. Drink lot of water help to replenish fluids inside your body and balance out the body pH. This habit helps you to remove most of the toxins and cleanse your internal organs and blood.

Thanks for reading.

p/s: Am not a medical practitioner nor fitness instructor. Am just enjoy reading medical and fitness texts.

Kitty 101: February Purchase

Assalammualaikum people!

Today I would like to introduce to yo'll one of my furry family member; Obol. It is a tom cat with white-not so long- fur and lots of cellulite. He is only 2 years old with 4.6kg( currently lost weight due to active life-style). 

I am Obol and I love makeup

I am a Durian lover and my record of Hall of Fame is 6 pieces of Durian

Yesterday, I went to shop his necessities like: 

1- Bentinoite ( Cat Litter)

Because of he lives in side the house( caged), he needs his own litter box. Due to economic recession, I was unable to buy the expensive- fragranced one. So I bought this giant Cat Litter @ RM 14.99/ 7.7kg each. My father would clean Obol's litter box everyday and replace the sand every 2 days.

2. Food

Obol has one weakness, He detests chewing. He prefers wet and paste-like foods. Whenever he saw  us eating something like bread, cookies, chips, chicken, fruits, veggies, nuts and candies, he will begging us to chew it for him. He will not touch it if it was in solid/hard form. 

Here is the list of wet food and the pricing:

a. Whiskas Adult Variety box@ RM 16.99/box ( it contains 12 pockets for RM1.41 each meaning I saved RM0.10 each compared purchasing it individually)

b. Prodiet Wet Food@ RM6.98/5 pockets ( I saved up RM0.10 each compared purchasing it individually)

c. Fancy Feast Broth@RM2.75/each (this is Obol first attempt to eat broth + tuna chunks , he doesn't interested as it has no strong temptation smells. 

So the total of his necessities is RM76.50 

P/s: Don't worry if you thought his wet food might not be enough as he will sourly eat the dry food when he is hungry.

Beauty 101: The Lazy Girl's Mascara

Assalammualaikum peeps,

Happy New Year 2016 everyone!!

'Stay Fit and Healthy, Make more money, Find a future Husband, and Be Beautiful' - my resolution

I am currently working as Special Officer at one of million dollar company. This job requires me to look neat, sleek and professional.

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Even I had downloaded thousands of makeup tutorials from makeup gurus like Lisa Eldridge, Wayne Goss and Karima McKimmie, unfortunately I don't have spare time to put on my makeup. I will leave to work looking like this everyday.

Lately, I've been thinking how to beautify myself with minimal effort and less makeup. I found out that by putting on mascara can change the way you look. It helps you to look more awake and fresh like you had the best sleep time ever.

When I reach my workplace, powder room is my first destination to prepare ma face yo'll. I would put on my face powder, doing my eyebrow, glide some kind of KylieLipJenner's lipstick onto my lips and lastly my mascara. This beautify effort would spare me only 5 minutes a-nd I concentrate more on mascara to accentuate my features.

Here is the step by step guidelines you may follow to apply mascara in 60 seconds; 

First of all, choose a good brand of mascara and you might need waterproof mascara for long lasting curls. There are few cosmetic brands offering good quality of mascara and receiving good reviews from the experts and I choose Maybeline Lashionista.

Secondly,  curl your eye lashes using your fingers. For your information, the heat from your finger will curl the lashes naturally but do not press so hard until hurting your eye balls.  Do you know, some of women are using spoon instead of lash curler? Yup, in case of emergency, get your spoon in action! Nah, I only need ma fingers.

Lastly, apply the mascara on your eye lashes with zig-zag direction to avoid clumping. Do not apply to much of mascara! 

 That's pretty much-it

I wish to be born beautiful

Beauty 101: December Purchase!

Assalammualaikum w.b.t readers,

It's already 25th and happy holiday but it is not too late for me to share this post. This time I would like to share most of random products; books, hair products and skin care.


1. Books

 Stay with Me

 is the third book of J Lynn's Wait For You series. This would be my countless times purchasing through online bookstore; Debook Room. It has the greatest services and pool of books. I bought this book early December and I had read it 3 times since then. I love the characters in this book but the most of this 21 years old girl. She had battled the same 'inner-strength' dilemma as me. Thus I felt quite close to the character named Calla Fritz. I only bought this book instead of the 2 earlier book of this series. I don't feel the urge to buy the whole series not because it wasn't a good book but I felt just enough to have only this. This material is only suitable for YOUNG ADULT AGED ABOVE 20. I give 4 out of 5 for this book. 

Secret Garden

by Johanna Basford is meant for adult who enjoyed colouring. Together with that, I bought along a 48 Watercolour Pencils by Faber Castell at MPH Bookstore for only RM88.90(both) with membership discount. Yup it sound childish but hell I don't give a damn for that. Am currently working out to have Watercolour pencil Albrecht Dürer and Colour Pencil Polychromos. 

2. Random things from Daiso 

right& left: Armpit Sweat Absorbent Pad

below: Cockroach Trap

All items were only RM5.30 each

 This is how the armpit pad looks like. You need to peel off the adhesive covers then patch it to the armhole of your cloth. This is a rare Japanese invention but I like it. As a patient of hyperhidrosis, it had saved me from embarrassment of wet armpit. I can now wear bright coloured cotton/satin/silk cloth with no wet patch under my arm.

3. Pampering Products

Left: Pinetarsol Gel as my itchy reliever when my eczema worsen.

Right: L'oréal EverCrème Sulfate free Shampoo.

My second tube of Pinetarsol Gel as it helps me a lot.  The L'oréal EverCrème Sulphate free Shampoo is suitable for my sensitive scalp. Please read more how sulphate free shampoo is good for your hair. It has a nice smell and leave my hair silky smooth, clean and fresh. I bought it at Watson(as the only distributor) for only RM29.90

                                     

Better Olive Soap Collection by Munif Hijjaz 

in Dead Sea Mud and Goat Milk. I bought it online at Munif Hijjaz store with only RM19.90 each. There are tons of advantages using olive oil in your daily life especially for your skin. For your additional info, this product is made in Palestine so I showed my solidarity to Palestinian and their products.

Tanamera Scrub Series

in Clarifying Hibiscus for only RM28. Tanamera is a local brand but very popular in Europe. It has wide range of skincare in very exclusive scents. You can pamper yourself just like in an exclusive spa but in DIY way.

I stored it in a small container and placed it in the bathroom. The scrub smells nice and works wonders to my skin. Leave my skin smooth and moisturised.

That is all for this entry. Salut!!

My Every First: #No 2 Save a Life

Assalammualaikum w.b.t readers,

How was my first 'first time' story? Boleh la!! Ceh...Tak de feeling langsung... FINE!!

My next story would be my first encounter on saving a life. I'm giving some clues here. An animal. Hairy. In the middle of a road. Bleeding. Unconscious. What is it?


It was a monkey.

The story started like this. Once upon a time,  I was already late to go to work in one sunny Saturday. I drove like a drunk driver but in much controlled way. I took my usual route to go to work. However,  when I reached one junction after traffic light, I noticed a body of unconscious male monkey in the middle of the road. Most of the vehicles tried to avoid from hitting the monkey. My heart started to sink. I can't concentrate on my driving. My head kept telling me that I should pull over and moved that monkey to the side. I kept telling myself that I was the Chosen One. I was granted with this kind of thought that not everyone has.

What I did was, yeah, I pulled over even though I was affirmatively late to go to work. I ran to the middle of the road as fast as I could in my high heels. Then I grabbed its rough hairy hands without thinking of our safety and I pulled it under a tree by the side of the road. It took me a few long breaths to stabilise myself. I was shaken. It was my first time doing this and I was afraid and proud at the same time. No word can describe my real feeling at this time. 

It still breathing weakly and warm. I laid it nicely and left with strong gut and intuition that it would be just fined once it regained its consciousness. When I went back to my car, I ain't drive straight away. I watched the monkey for a couple of minutes and tears sprung from my eyes. I cried because there   was a female monkey climbed down the tree and got closer to the unconscious body of its family. The female monkey then touched it slowly and convincingly to wake the innocent hit and run victim. I can't no longer wait and I started the engine. 

As I past the monkey slowly, the female monkey looked attentively to me through the window. I gave a goodbye wave after it sent me a grateful thanks look. My heart sunk and my tears sprung free. Later that evening, I went back to the location but the body was no longer there. I can conclude here the monkey has regained its consciousness and lived happy and healthy. Every morning I watch the group of monkeys hanging from the tree to tree without failure to pray on their safety and health.

YES I BELIEVED I AM THE CHOSEN ONE

My Every First : #No 1 Unggun Api

Assalammualaikum dear readers,

I am pretty sure there would always first time in everything. So I would like to dedicate my every first time story with you guys. My stories might be unnecessarily written periodically. I'll just write anything that came across in my head. Some might be hilarious, boring, lame, ordinary and perfect. Perhaps, I should write in Bahasa Melayu though.

Unggun Api Pertama

Dulu masa tingkatan 3, aku pernah turut serta dalam kem kepimpinan badan beruniform. Ceh!! Aku joined bukan sebab aku ade pangkat dalam PBSM tapi sebab aku pengerusi kelab Seni Lukis. Aku tak ingat tempat tu di mana tapi yang pasti tempat tu ada dataran kawad yang besar dikelilingi hutan, ada sungai, tempat pacak khemah serta monkey tent dan ade flying fox. Aku memang cepat adapt dengan surrounding so tak kesan sangat dengan aktiviti lasak cumanya, aku paling tak suka kalau kena berkawad. Terik mentari aku boleh tahan tapi aku lemah bab koordinasi. Aku memang tak ingat steps. Ajar la aku perlahan mana pun, dari A ke  Z tapi bila masuk tang Z then aku akan lupa step A-Y.

Aku paling suka satu aktiviti yang dipanggil 'survival skills'. Part nak makan apa dalam hutan memang tarik perhatian aku. Lepas dipecahkan mengikut kumpulan, kami diajar macam mana nak pancing ikan, siang ikan dan masak ikan. Sebelum itu, unggun api haruslah didirikan terlebih dahulu. Aku ditugaskan untuk buat unggun api tersebut which is my first time kot. So ditakdirkan harus  mencari ranting-ranting kayu dan daun kering. Aku tahu rupa ranting kayu, batang kayu dan batang balak. Tetapi aku tak tahu rupa rumah semut dalam batang kayu! Aku dengan gigihnya kutip semua ranting yang aku jumpa, tebas sana tebas sini sehinggalah aku tertebas rumah semut dalam batang kayu. 

At first, aku tak nampak makhluk kecil tu tapi once aku dah letak atas tanah, selang 5 minit, group jiran-jiran dah mula ketepek sana ketepek sini garu sini garu sana. Rupa-rupanya kena gigit semut yang keluar dari batang kayu aku. Situasi menjadi agak kecoh di situ dan masing-masing sibuk maki "eh nate, mano pulok mari nyo? Tadi dok nampak sekor pun" " alamak, banyak semut la kat sini! Habis naik satu badan" "Mana datang semut-semut ni, Ya Allah!!" "Arrghhhhhh". Aku ketawa dalam hati jer  sebab nak cover perbuatan keji aku. Sapa nak ngaku wey kalau ko punca bala menimpa. 

Yippy.. Unggun api aku menjadi dengan sekali zapppp percikan api ditambah pula bahan kering yang asli dan organik. Aku memang tak kan bunuh serangga or binatang so aku tolak tepi batang kayu a.k.a rumah semut tu. Tetapi, teammate aku yang campak kayu tu dalam unggun. So even semut-semut tu mati terbakar tapi bukan aku yang bakar. By the way, aku tak lalu makan ikan yang dipancing tadi so aku bagi portion aku pada orang. Diorang sangat menikmati kesedapannya sebab diorang tak cukup makan. Khemah aku penuh makanan macam kedai sebab aku dengan Syikin sangat bijak orangnye. Khemah yang sepatutnya berenam, hanya tinggal kami berdua sahaja. Jadinya, khemah kami agak luas, sejuk, selesa dan bersih.

Nota kaki: pengalam unggun api pertama aku- selesai

The Aftermath of Making Big Decision

Assalammualaikum w.b.t readers,

Have you ever NOT making any decision in one day? Sure not. We use to make decision everyday and every minute. Starting right we jump out of the bed, we will start making decisions; whether to take a shower or not, what should we wear today, what breakfast to eat, heading to work by car or subway and the list is endless until we going back to bed later that night.

However, have you ever make any big decision but it turns out bad? I'm pretty sure most of us sure did. Some might have dated the wrong person, some might have married the wrong spouse, some might have worked in wrong company, some might have studied in wrong School. At first, we thought we had chosen the best solution that will not jeopardise others and change our life but after we took that decision, then we realised we are doomed.

Frankly speaking, yes I had encountered this situation. I made up my mind based on what I felt a right and the best decision to me and to my family. What I did was to turn down my Master offers from University of Kent and University of Aberdeen in International Relation with International Law. My reasons for doing that was because I am not ready to get out of my comfort zone. Going abroad alone is a big challenge for me and it's like eating a slice of chocolate cake every morning to lose weight. Second, I am afraid the sponsorship I received might not enough for the whole semester due to economic recession and low currency of Malaysian Ringgit. Third, I am not a bright student and I do not own an X factor that could impress my Professors. I am not sure whether I don't own it or I owned it but I don't realise it. Fourth, I am not doing it for myself. Before this, I live for somebody else and I fulfil their expectation but doing Master Degree in the UK is not a game which I don't want to gamble.

BUT what happened after I decided not going? First, my mom hates me. Second, my aunty hates me. Third, my mom hates me because my aunty hates me and she is angry with my mom. Fourth, my friends left me because I am a failure. Fifth, all relationships gone. Sixth, I am not at home in my own home. Seventh, my life getting lonelier.  Eighth, I have to work for living. Ninth, I can't focus at my work. Tenth, I am afraid of making any big decision anymore.

Beauty 101: July Purchase!

Assalammualaikum uolls,

My last post was about my emptied products. This time I would like to share with products I had purchased for the month of July.  Most of the products I purchased were to help banishing my body acne and eczema.

This time I had purchased Naruko Apple Seed & Tranexamic Acid, Dermalogica Conditioning Body Wash and Dermalogica Super Sensitive Shield aka Sunblock.

My acne had improved but not the scars. The scars might take times to disappear hence, I bought this product to brighten up and fade the my acne scars. I bought it few weeks ago and I can see my skin had brighten a bit and the scars had fade away but not completely fade away. This product contained natural ingredients as brightening and firming agent. I did notice the firming effect without leaving tight effect to your face. 

The second product is this Dermalogica Super Sensitive Shield spf 30 in UltraCalming range. It is quite pricey I do agree with that. However, what make it worth buying for is the physical protection against UVA. When most of sunblocks in the market gave you only chemical protection, this product protect your skin physically. It contained substances that won't clogged your pores which is good for those who suffered acne. Second reason I bought this sunblock is because I ran out my MD Dermatics Sunblock spf 40 which is also worth buying for. Even though it quite pricey but small travel size can last for 6 months with everyday use. Hopefully the Dermalogica sunblock can last as longer as the MD Dermatics. The Dermalogica 50ml sunblock cost me RM253 while the MD Dermatics 30ml cost me RM98. Both price were after discount deduction.

The last product I bought today is this Dermalogica Conditioning Body Wash. Again this product is quite pricey for a 473ml worth at RM186. Believe me, I have been fighting eczema and body acne. For somebody in my situation, we are dying to have an itchy-free skin and flawless skin. Thus, I am willing to buy this product. This is a soap-free gel with Pro-Vitamin B5 which leaving your skin feeling soft and silky. It contained Tea Tree, Lemon, Eucalyptus and Rosemary which will help you banish the back and chest acne. It also contained soothing essential oils of Sandalwood, Lavender, Orange and Clary Sage leaving you with heaven and earth scent. It has been formulated without artificial fragrances and colours that is why it is colourless as shown.

These are products for the month of July which I'll be using to banish my eczema and body acne. Again, I did not get ant sponsored from brand mentioned here. This writing is based on my readings and consultation and my journey to fight my problems. I am here to help those who had suffered the same problem as me.