Beauty 101: December Purchase!

Assalammualaikum w.b.t readers,

It's already 25th and happy holiday but it is not too late for me to share this post. This time I would like to share most of random products; books, hair products and skin care.


1. Books

 Stay with Me

 is the third book of J Lynn's Wait For You series. This would be my countless times purchasing through online bookstore; Debook Room. It has the greatest services and pool of books. I bought this book early December and I had read it 3 times since then. I love the characters in this book but the most of this 21 years old girl. She had battled the same 'inner-strength' dilemma as me. Thus I felt quite close to the character named Calla Fritz. I only bought this book instead of the 2 earlier book of this series. I don't feel the urge to buy the whole series not because it wasn't a good book but I felt just enough to have only this. This material is only suitable for YOUNG ADULT AGED ABOVE 20. I give 4 out of 5 for this book. 

Secret Garden

by Johanna Basford is meant for adult who enjoyed colouring. Together with that, I bought along a 48 Watercolour Pencils by Faber Castell at MPH Bookstore for only RM88.90(both) with membership discount. Yup it sound childish but hell I don't give a damn for that. Am currently working out to have Watercolour pencil Albrecht Dürer and Colour Pencil Polychromos. 

2. Random things from Daiso 

right& left: Armpit Sweat Absorbent Pad

below: Cockroach Trap

All items were only RM5.30 each

 This is how the armpit pad looks like. You need to peel off the adhesive covers then patch it to the armhole of your cloth. This is a rare Japanese invention but I like it. As a patient of hyperhidrosis, it had saved me from embarrassment of wet armpit. I can now wear bright coloured cotton/satin/silk cloth with no wet patch under my arm.

3. Pampering Products

Left: Pinetarsol Gel as my itchy reliever when my eczema worsen.

Right: L'oréal EverCrème Sulfate free Shampoo.

My second tube of Pinetarsol Gel as it helps me a lot.  The L'oréal EverCrème Sulphate free Shampoo is suitable for my sensitive scalp. Please read more how sulphate free shampoo is good for your hair. It has a nice smell and leave my hair silky smooth, clean and fresh. I bought it at Watson(as the only distributor) for only RM29.90

                                     

Better Olive Soap Collection by Munif Hijjaz 

in Dead Sea Mud and Goat Milk. I bought it online at Munif Hijjaz store with only RM19.90 each. There are tons of advantages using olive oil in your daily life especially for your skin. For your additional info, this product is made in Palestine so I showed my solidarity to Palestinian and their products.

Tanamera Scrub Series

in Clarifying Hibiscus for only RM28. Tanamera is a local brand but very popular in Europe. It has wide range of skincare in very exclusive scents. You can pamper yourself just like in an exclusive spa but in DIY way.

I stored it in a small container and placed it in the bathroom. The scrub smells nice and works wonders to my skin. Leave my skin smooth and moisturised.

That is all for this entry. Salut!!

My Every First: #No 2 Save a Life

Assalammualaikum w.b.t readers,

How was my first 'first time' story? Boleh la!! Ceh...Tak de feeling langsung... FINE!!

My next story would be my first encounter on saving a life. I'm giving some clues here. An animal. Hairy. In the middle of a road. Bleeding. Unconscious. What is it?


It was a monkey.

The story started like this. Once upon a time,  I was already late to go to work in one sunny Saturday. I drove like a drunk driver but in much controlled way. I took my usual route to go to work. However,  when I reached one junction after traffic light, I noticed a body of unconscious male monkey in the middle of the road. Most of the vehicles tried to avoid from hitting the monkey. My heart started to sink. I can't concentrate on my driving. My head kept telling me that I should pull over and moved that monkey to the side. I kept telling myself that I was the Chosen One. I was granted with this kind of thought that not everyone has.

What I did was, yeah, I pulled over even though I was affirmatively late to go to work. I ran to the middle of the road as fast as I could in my high heels. Then I grabbed its rough hairy hands without thinking of our safety and I pulled it under a tree by the side of the road. It took me a few long breaths to stabilise myself. I was shaken. It was my first time doing this and I was afraid and proud at the same time. No word can describe my real feeling at this time. 

It still breathing weakly and warm. I laid it nicely and left with strong gut and intuition that it would be just fined once it regained its consciousness. When I went back to my car, I ain't drive straight away. I watched the monkey for a couple of minutes and tears sprung from my eyes. I cried because there   was a female monkey climbed down the tree and got closer to the unconscious body of its family. The female monkey then touched it slowly and convincingly to wake the innocent hit and run victim. I can't no longer wait and I started the engine. 

As I past the monkey slowly, the female monkey looked attentively to me through the window. I gave a goodbye wave after it sent me a grateful thanks look. My heart sunk and my tears sprung free. Later that evening, I went back to the location but the body was no longer there. I can conclude here the monkey has regained its consciousness and lived happy and healthy. Every morning I watch the group of monkeys hanging from the tree to tree without failure to pray on their safety and health.

YES I BELIEVED I AM THE CHOSEN ONE

My Every First : #No 1 Unggun Api

Assalammualaikum dear readers,

I am pretty sure there would always first time in everything. So I would like to dedicate my every first time story with you guys. My stories might be unnecessarily written periodically. I'll just write anything that came across in my head. Some might be hilarious, boring, lame, ordinary and perfect. Perhaps, I should write in Bahasa Melayu though.

Unggun Api Pertama

Dulu masa tingkatan 3, aku pernah turut serta dalam kem kepimpinan badan beruniform. Ceh!! Aku joined bukan sebab aku ade pangkat dalam PBSM tapi sebab aku pengerusi kelab Seni Lukis. Aku tak ingat tempat tu di mana tapi yang pasti tempat tu ada dataran kawad yang besar dikelilingi hutan, ada sungai, tempat pacak khemah serta monkey tent dan ade flying fox. Aku memang cepat adapt dengan surrounding so tak kesan sangat dengan aktiviti lasak cumanya, aku paling tak suka kalau kena berkawad. Terik mentari aku boleh tahan tapi aku lemah bab koordinasi. Aku memang tak ingat steps. Ajar la aku perlahan mana pun, dari A ke  Z tapi bila masuk tang Z then aku akan lupa step A-Y.

Aku paling suka satu aktiviti yang dipanggil 'survival skills'. Part nak makan apa dalam hutan memang tarik perhatian aku. Lepas dipecahkan mengikut kumpulan, kami diajar macam mana nak pancing ikan, siang ikan dan masak ikan. Sebelum itu, unggun api haruslah didirikan terlebih dahulu. Aku ditugaskan untuk buat unggun api tersebut which is my first time kot. So ditakdirkan harus  mencari ranting-ranting kayu dan daun kering. Aku tahu rupa ranting kayu, batang kayu dan batang balak. Tetapi aku tak tahu rupa rumah semut dalam batang kayu! Aku dengan gigihnya kutip semua ranting yang aku jumpa, tebas sana tebas sini sehinggalah aku tertebas rumah semut dalam batang kayu. 

At first, aku tak nampak makhluk kecil tu tapi once aku dah letak atas tanah, selang 5 minit, group jiran-jiran dah mula ketepek sana ketepek sini garu sini garu sana. Rupa-rupanya kena gigit semut yang keluar dari batang kayu aku. Situasi menjadi agak kecoh di situ dan masing-masing sibuk maki "eh nate, mano pulok mari nyo? Tadi dok nampak sekor pun" " alamak, banyak semut la kat sini! Habis naik satu badan" "Mana datang semut-semut ni, Ya Allah!!" "Arrghhhhhh". Aku ketawa dalam hati jer  sebab nak cover perbuatan keji aku. Sapa nak ngaku wey kalau ko punca bala menimpa. 

Yippy.. Unggun api aku menjadi dengan sekali zapppp percikan api ditambah pula bahan kering yang asli dan organik. Aku memang tak kan bunuh serangga or binatang so aku tolak tepi batang kayu a.k.a rumah semut tu. Tetapi, teammate aku yang campak kayu tu dalam unggun. So even semut-semut tu mati terbakar tapi bukan aku yang bakar. By the way, aku tak lalu makan ikan yang dipancing tadi so aku bagi portion aku pada orang. Diorang sangat menikmati kesedapannya sebab diorang tak cukup makan. Khemah aku penuh makanan macam kedai sebab aku dengan Syikin sangat bijak orangnye. Khemah yang sepatutnya berenam, hanya tinggal kami berdua sahaja. Jadinya, khemah kami agak luas, sejuk, selesa dan bersih.

Nota kaki: pengalam unggun api pertama aku- selesai

The Aftermath of Making Big Decision

Assalammualaikum w.b.t readers,

Have you ever NOT making any decision in one day? Sure not. We use to make decision everyday and every minute. Starting right we jump out of the bed, we will start making decisions; whether to take a shower or not, what should we wear today, what breakfast to eat, heading to work by car or subway and the list is endless until we going back to bed later that night.

However, have you ever make any big decision but it turns out bad? I'm pretty sure most of us sure did. Some might have dated the wrong person, some might have married the wrong spouse, some might have worked in wrong company, some might have studied in wrong School. At first, we thought we had chosen the best solution that will not jeopardise others and change our life but after we took that decision, then we realised we are doomed.

Frankly speaking, yes I had encountered this situation. I made up my mind based on what I felt a right and the best decision to me and to my family. What I did was to turn down my Master offers from University of Kent and University of Aberdeen in International Relation with International Law. My reasons for doing that was because I am not ready to get out of my comfort zone. Going abroad alone is a big challenge for me and it's like eating a slice of chocolate cake every morning to lose weight. Second, I am afraid the sponsorship I received might not enough for the whole semester due to economic recession and low currency of Malaysian Ringgit. Third, I am not a bright student and I do not own an X factor that could impress my Professors. I am not sure whether I don't own it or I owned it but I don't realise it. Fourth, I am not doing it for myself. Before this, I live for somebody else and I fulfil their expectation but doing Master Degree in the UK is not a game which I don't want to gamble.

BUT what happened after I decided not going? First, my mom hates me. Second, my aunty hates me. Third, my mom hates me because my aunty hates me and she is angry with my mom. Fourth, my friends left me because I am a failure. Fifth, all relationships gone. Sixth, I am not at home in my own home. Seventh, my life getting lonelier.  Eighth, I have to work for living. Ninth, I can't focus at my work. Tenth, I am afraid of making any big decision anymore.

Beauty 101: July Purchase!

Assalammualaikum uolls,

My last post was about my emptied products. This time I would like to share with products I had purchased for the month of July.  Most of the products I purchased were to help banishing my body acne and eczema.

This time I had purchased Naruko Apple Seed & Tranexamic Acid, Dermalogica Conditioning Body Wash and Dermalogica Super Sensitive Shield aka Sunblock.

My acne had improved but not the scars. The scars might take times to disappear hence, I bought this product to brighten up and fade the my acne scars. I bought it few weeks ago and I can see my skin had brighten a bit and the scars had fade away but not completely fade away. This product contained natural ingredients as brightening and firming agent. I did notice the firming effect without leaving tight effect to your face. 

The second product is this Dermalogica Super Sensitive Shield spf 30 in UltraCalming range. It is quite pricey I do agree with that. However, what make it worth buying for is the physical protection against UVA. When most of sunblocks in the market gave you only chemical protection, this product protect your skin physically. It contained substances that won't clogged your pores which is good for those who suffered acne. Second reason I bought this sunblock is because I ran out my MD Dermatics Sunblock spf 40 which is also worth buying for. Even though it quite pricey but small travel size can last for 6 months with everyday use. Hopefully the Dermalogica sunblock can last as longer as the MD Dermatics. The Dermalogica 50ml sunblock cost me RM253 while the MD Dermatics 30ml cost me RM98. Both price were after discount deduction.

The last product I bought today is this Dermalogica Conditioning Body Wash. Again this product is quite pricey for a 473ml worth at RM186. Believe me, I have been fighting eczema and body acne. For somebody in my situation, we are dying to have an itchy-free skin and flawless skin. Thus, I am willing to buy this product. This is a soap-free gel with Pro-Vitamin B5 which leaving your skin feeling soft and silky. It contained Tea Tree, Lemon, Eucalyptus and Rosemary which will help you banish the back and chest acne. It also contained soothing essential oils of Sandalwood, Lavender, Orange and Clary Sage leaving you with heaven and earth scent. It has been formulated without artificial fragrances and colours that is why it is colourless as shown.

These are products for the month of July which I'll be using to banish my eczema and body acne. Again, I did not get ant sponsored from brand mentioned here. This writing is based on my readings and consultation and my journey to fight my problems. I am here to help those who had suffered the same problem as me.

Beauty 101 : Emptied Products June

Assalammualaikum,

How is your Ramadhan? Hopefully you are still in a good shape and fit alhamdulillah. Remember, everything depends on your nawaitu. What about mine? Most of the Ramadan weeks I spent alone at my Uni because I had examination which turn out to be my last examination for my bachelor degree In Syaa Allah. Only a few days of Ramadan left so I would like to spend with my family and friends. So, after the last paper ended, I packed my luggages and boxes of things and went home.

Back to our topic, it is about what products I've been consumed and finished up for the past month. I dedicated this entry for those who have similar problems as I do. As a recap, I have acne prone skin and eczema. My acne is just on my face but also my body. I currently going for consultation with Dermatologist at DEMC Shah Alam and I've been prescribed with oral medicines and some creams for acne and eczema. 

During the treatment, apart from using what I was prescribed with, I had purchased some products at local drugstore aka Pharmacy. My eczema is not that bad but sometimes I use to get terrible itchy day when the weather is prickling hot, my room is dusty for example. I had purchased Sebamed Shower Gel and Ego Pinetarsol gel. As for my acne prone face, I bought Naruko Tea Tree Purifying Clay Mask  & Cleanser.

This limited edition Sebamed Shower Gel with Grapefruit is a soap-free cleansing gel. I loved the smell; it is so refreshing with grapefruit smell. It freshen me up after long hectic day. It contained 100% biodegradable and environment friendly. The pH 5.5 was ideal for my sensitive skin and supported skin's moisture balance.

The next product I bought was this Naruko Tea Tree Purifying Clay Mask. In order to speed up my acne healing process I thought this product would be good. I had noticed it did reduced my pimples without drying out my skin. Clay is a good substance to absorb access oil/sebum on your face. It can be used as scrub also. The smell was refreshing with tea tree and it had cool sensation.

The last product I bought is this Ego Pinetarsol gel. It relieved my inflamed and itchy skin. The pH 6 maintained my skin's moisture. It smelt sharp pine but acceptable. I can't leave without this gel when the disaster itchy day came. It can be purchased in gel and also shower liquid foam.

  In a nutshell, I successfully emptied these products. All of these product had help me with eczema and acne. I did not get sponsored or what so ever. This writing was based on my thorough readings and consultation.

 P/S: sorry for the bad images, I'm not good at taking pictures.

4 Hari 3 Malam dari Kota Kinabalu ke Ranau- Part 2

Assalammualaikum w.b.t

4/6/2015

Malam tadi aku tido pukul 12 a.m sebab dah terbiasa tapi di Sabah, pukul 12 sunyi dia macam pukul 3 pagi. Subuh pukul 4.30 a.m wey, kalau kat semenanjung aku bangun subuh pukul 6.30 a.m kat sini matahari dah naik macam pukul 8 pagi. Kaum2 ibu dah terpekik terlolong kejut bangun sebab pukul 8 a.m tu kami akan bertolak ke Kundasang. Memandangkan cousins aku yang lain ada komitmen kerjaya, hanya abang Iju saja yang turut dalam makan angin kali ni. Tunggu punya tunggu, dari pukul 7 pagi sampai pukul 9 pagi batang hidung dia pun aku tak nampak. Rupanya, dia tunggu kawan dia a.k.a pemandu arah tapi orang tu tak datang pun akhirnya, kembali la si Iju keseorangan. Sebab mak aku jenis cerewet, kami bertolak dulu ke Pantai Likas tinggalkan Iju. Then 30 minit kemudia, Iju pun sampai dengan kereta racing, wira merah-hitam. Aku, cik wee dan Naqib menjadi penumpang terhormat dia. Yang lain naik kereta sewa Avanza. Sepanjang perjalanan tu aku tak lelapkan mata pun sebab nak tengok suasan flora dan fauna juga pembangunan sekitar. Laju jugak si jejaka berusia 26 tahun ni bawa kereta menuju ke banjaran!

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Perjalanan ke Poring yang merentasi, Silau, Kundasang dan Ranau mengambil masa 2 jam. Memang jalan dia berliku macam nak naik Cameron Highland tapi tak selekoh dia tak setajam jalan Cameron tu dan lorong dia besar la jugak. Kami berhenti berehat di Kinabalu Park dengan bayaran rm3 satu kepala. Dalam tu ada Rafflesia tapi kitorang tak masuk lebih ke dalam sebab kejar masa. Semua orang mengisi perut masing dengan leftover-heated nasi ayam malam tadi. Aku tak makan sebab sibuk cari toilet dan air dia sejuk!

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Kami meneruskan perjalan ke Poring yang terletak dihujung merentasi Kundasang dan Ranau. Kaum ibu2 kalau dah nampak sayur-sayur segar, bunga dan buah-buahan tepi jalan tu sibuk suruh pull over. Membeli- belah la masing2 dengan segala macam buah dan kerepek. Aku tertarik dengan satu buah namanya Lemak Manis. Rasanya macam avokado tapi warnanya kuning nangka dan rasanya manis2 kelat. Kami berhenti solat di Masjid.

Di Poring, kami masuk ke Hot Spring dengan bayaran masuk RM 3. Kawasan mata air tu jauh sikit ke dalam hutan dan kena jalan kaki tapi kemudahan semua lengkap. Laluan pun cantik dan ada jambatan merentasi air sungai. Baba dan Pak We tak masuk sebab Pak We tak boleh jalan jauh sebab dia strok separa badan tapi dia gigih jugak layan kerenah aku nak ke sini. Mama cakap kitorang pernah ke sini 18 tahun lalu. Aku hanya ingat aku pernah mandi kolam air panas and abang aku pernah rebus telur ayam tapi I can't remember where. Baba cakap kawasan ni dah banyak berubah.

Next stop, kami ke Desa Cattle (Sabah) Sdn Bhd. Tempat ni merupakan kawasan penternakan Lembu Susu terletak di lembah menghijau yang terbentang luas. Tempat ni kau boleh feeling ala-ala New Zealand gitu. Banyak jugak pelancong locals and foreigners datang dan banyak jugak lembu hitam putih macam iklan Dutch Lady tu. Tempat ni ada beberapa aktiviti antaranya memerah susu dan beberapa lagi tapi itu saja yang aku ingat. Bayaran masuk dengan berkereta RM 5 per head. Nak beraktiviti ada bayaran lain dikenakan. Disebabkan kami datang pukul 4 so tak boleh beraktiviti sangat sebab dia tutup pukul 4.30. Lepas shopping susu plain and chocolate, kami bertolak balik ke KK. Supposely nak singgah ke tempat ikan kecik2 gigit kaki tu tapi tak sempat. 

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Sepanjang perjalanan balik tu, laluan turun mula di tutupi kabus. Aku apa lagi, jakun sekejap bukak tingkap feeling nak pegang awan. Aku rasa kabus tu memang awan sebab dia moist ada water droplet and sejuk. Tiba pada satu spot ni, aku nampak puncak Gunung Kinabalu donkey ears tu so aku suruh Iju berhenti tepi jalan. Rezeki kitorang sebab Allah buka awan2 yang menutupi puncak tu nak bagi kami tengok. Memang jelas pemandangan tu dan cantik. Subhanaallah!!

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Aku terlelap seketika sampai ke Silau dan aku cipta satu teori kenapa tempat ni di panggil Silau. Sepanjang perjalan turun, matahari memang sebaris dengan mata kau dan menyilaukan lalu akhirnya tempat ni dapat nama Silau. Selalunya matahari terbenam warna jingga tapi maybe sebab ada kabus tadi so ade la pembiasan- prism-matahari tu jadi warna putih.

Sampai di Kota Belut pukul 7.30 dan Iju bawa kami ke Restoran Steamboat tapi sebab warga emas ndak lalu makan jadi dia bawa kami ke restoran lain. Butterprawn dia perghh.. nyaman! Di sini, kita bulih pilih mau udang kopek atau berkulit. Sampai di homestay, mama suruh Iju bawa Pak Long tidur sini. Alang-alang Iju tidur sini, Naqib minta di bawa jenjalan sekitar KK. Dia pun on saja. Kami berempat, aku, Ala, Naqib dan Iju lepak sekejap di Tanjung Aru pukul 11pm. Pantainya tengah surut dan gelap, hanya diterangi lampu kedai2. Kami buka kasut dan jalan di gigi air sepanjang pantai yang bersih dan jernih sambil makan kacang rebus. 

Habis main pantai, kami ke bandar pula. Time sudah pukul 12am so semua premis perniagaan sudah tutup. Kami round2 lama la jugak, aku nampak ada bangunan mewah dan shopping mall. Kami singgah ke Kampung Air, Api-Api dan last stop di tempat tinjau kat atas bukit berdekatan dengan Padang Merdeka. Nampak la most of the cities at night with neon light. Then balik ke rumah pukul 1 pagi. 

4 Hari 3 Malam Dari Kota Kinabalu ke Ranau- Part 1

Assalammualaikum w.b.t

3/6/2015 

Seminggu yang lepas, aku dapat khabar dari mama yang Mak Long aku dah meninggal. Seingat aku, arwah memang seorang yang menjaga kesihatan dan cergas. Selama 22 tahun aku hidup baru 3 kali aku jumpa arwah. Pak Long sekeluarga memang menetap di Putatan, Sabah dan kami kerabat yang lain memang asal semenanjung. Alang-alang aku tengah cuti seminggu and adik aku tengah cuti sekolah, tetiba mama ajak jenguk keluarga pak long di sana. Kami bertolak pada hari Rabu 3/6/2015 dan balik hari ni, Sabtu 6/6/2015.

First time jumpa keluarga Pak Long masa umur aku 4-5 tahun, 18 tahun yang lalu. Baba, Mama, abang dan aku, turun ke Miri-Labuan- Kota Kinabalu. Apa yang aku ingat kejadian 18 tahun yang lalu ialah, pengalaman menaiki pesawat ringan yang kecik, naik feri/bot di Labuan then aku mabuk laut muntah dalam bekas kotak Popcorn, menginap di rumah Pak Long yang belakang rumahnya adalah laut! Anak perempuan pak long dukung aku dekat belakang semata-mata nak pergi kedai depan rumah yang aku ingat ada banyak balang kaca besar mengandungi apa ntoh then mandi pantai dengan anak pak long yang seramai 8 orang  then kaki aku tertoreh terumbu karang. Auuchhh sakit gila wa cakap sama lu tambah pedih lagi bila kena air masin. Sepanjang aku membesar, ada la jugak anak pak long yang study di semenanjung tinggal dengan keluarga aku walaupun sekejap. Serious, aku ingat-ingat lupa pasal benda ni.

Kami turun ke Sabah bersama 2 keluarga yang lain, Pak We(pak cik ketiga) & Mak We dan Cik Wee(mak cik ke 6) & Naqib. Naik Mas Airline sebab time tu harga nya murah dari Air Asia. Sesampai di KKIA, Kak Yin, Abang Eeit, Kak Yin dan Abang Ipin(anak2 pak long) jemput kitorang dan terus ke rumah Pak Long. Rumah yang aku datang 18 tahun lalu sudah banyak berubah. Dulu tak banyak rumah di sekitarnya tapi sekarang sudah banyak. Dulu belakang rumah tu adalah laut tapi sekarang air dah surut so ade penempatan rumah lain di belakang rumah tu. Sampai je sana, anak pak long yang lain sambut, Abang Iju dan Memo plus Pak Long. Duduk berborak, minum2 then kami solat jemaah di Surau berdekatan then terus ke kubur Mak Long. Nak tahlil di situ tapi cuaca terik sangat sampai ada pokok yang terbakar. Kami terus ke bandar untuk makan tengah hari di Restoran Sri Keningau( restoran kenalan family kami). Mama belanja semua orang, mula2 aku ingat anak pak long ni sombong sebab tidak pernah nak turun semenanjung tapi aku silap menilai. Mula-mula tu janggal la antara kami cousin2 yang tak pernah berjumpa ni tapi lama-lama, bila aku rajin bertanya itu ini, diorang okay saja.

Lepas lunch, Kak yin terus bawa kami ke homestay. Ya Allah, rumah tu cantik tapi lokasi dia betul2 bawah laluan kapal terbang landing kau! Selang 5 minit ade jer kapal atas kepala kau. Kapal Air Asia la paling kuat bunyi nya. Tapi, bukan tugas aku nak jadi jakun tengok kapal terbang landing memanjang! Malam tu kami buat tahlil untuk arwah dekat homestay kitorang je. Most of anak2 pak long ada bersama family kecik masing2. Tak sangka aku, Memo yang muda setahun dari aku dah bertunang, cantik pulak tu tunang dia tu. Wife abang Eeit masak nasi ayam Hainan, wa cakap sama lu memang terbaik, nyaman! Kalah semua nasi ayam hainan yang pernah aku rasa di semenanjung. Antara kami cousins2 memang janggal nak bercakap tapi diorang okay je dengan kaum mak2 bapak2. 

Then tido la apa lagi. Qada' tido sebab flight pagi tadi pukul 6 pagi!

Sarcasm Is The Lowest Mean Of Wits #have some Consideration!

Hi and Assalammualaikum w.b.t

I’ve been living for 22 years and seen some kinds of people but not as many as those who lived at 50. People from all races in Malaysia and other countries; but this is one kind of person that I can’t stand the most. With her superior position right now, it is a privilege for her I can’t say a word about her on her face. Why? Because she's teaching and giving knowledges to me. It is a Malaysian culture and Islamic teaching to respect your ‘Gurus’. My interpretation of respect are:

1-   Never come to class after your Gurus.

2-   Never challenge his/her words.

3-   Never interrupt his/her teaching.

4-   Never oppose his/her judgement.

5-   Never question his/her.

6-   Never stand for your right when he/she hell mad at you.

7-   Never change what he/she stated even though it is affirmatively wrong.

8-   Never correct his/her

9-   Never reply when he/she’s been sarcastic.

10- Never to detest he/her.

I am broken inside. It is so hard being a student in this rigid system. I don’t want to be a ‘carbon-copy’ kind of graduate. I don’t want to be smart because I cramped the big-bulky books. I don’t want to just blindly follow a philosophy without knowing others.I don’t want to be an obedient follower and foolishly agree with what you saying without additional reading. I want to be an extraordinary person with a competitive advantages. A person with a unique and strong quality. I am not claiming to change the rule here, I want to break the rule and go beyond and be everything that a human being suppose to experience. It is okay to make mistakes so you can learn from it so that you are not tripping twice. Instead people nowadays, learn what is a ‘mistake’ then label it as a ‘mistake’ then avoid what you’ve been taught as a ‘mistake’.

Enough with what I want. Here is what I want from her; not what I want her to be:

1- I want her when I consult her regarding my course, she can objectively and kindly show me what I did is wrong and correct/guide me to a clearer path. Not sarcastically pointing out my wrongs and blame me for my mistakes and leave me hanging in cloud nine. Please correct me if I did wrong; don’t leave me hanging and see you for the next consultation and repeat the same mistake and then you can once again sarcastically put your SHOUTY words on my face. It is disgusting. I’m not digging the correct answer from your mouth because that would be your answer not my ‘answer’. I want at least you tell me some clues to my ‘answer’. Simple words, your expectation on how I’m going to answer.

2- I want her to respect us the student at least a little. I’m not expecting her to ‘pleasantly’ budging into our lives to show her interest and care. At least be considerate because as a student; our level of thinking and maturity are developing same goes to our knowledge. Don’t assume that our way of thinking would be a higher as you the Guru. If you want me to think as you do, kindly list out all your assumptions so that I can have a crystal clear clarification of your way thinking. Then our ‘thoughts’ are equal. I have doubt on that, if I think the way you think and I know as much as you know, then why should I be your student? Why don’t I be extra smarter than you then I become your Guru and you my student?

3- It is very disappointed when what you’ve working on; your report for example got big boldly red X. You done that because it was wrong, okay I can accept that, but explain to me why it is wrong and how should I make it right. Maybe you want me to show my effort. Hell yeah, I've been waiting for you for hours from my appointment. i've been stay up all night making sure my report would impress you. I've climbed the stairs to 7th floor just to be on time. Can you see at least a drop of my sweat? Can you see how many papers I've been used? How many trees been cut down because of that? Please explain, explain, explain, explain

P/s: It is my final semester and I want to graduate on time and I don't want to hate my Gurus and i've been emotional. Women got their senses! This writing is not meant to destroy anyone as it is just my small thought of having difficulties in understanding people. Still, I would always, truly, honestly respect my Gurus.

Midterm Break Yang Busy

Assalammualaikum w.b.t

Apa yang 'busy' sangat ni? Nak cerita ni ha.. sepatutnya, aku buat revision, siapkan research bagai sem-break ni tapi dari hari jumaat last week aku sampai rumah sampai la sabtu hari ni, aku tak sempat capai buku pun. Dah la naik cuti ni midterm test week.

Apa je yang aku sibukkan ni sebenarnya? Actually, dalam minggu ni aku ada banyak appointments. Antaranya, appointment dengan Dermatologist, Gynaecologist, Perawat dari Darul Syifa', Tukang urut tradisional n SHOPPING.

Firstly, aku ada masalah dalaman. Yeah, setiap bulan seorang wanita akan datang bulan tapi tidak bagi aku. Sejak masuk semester baru, perioad aku tak datang dan muka aku naik jerawat. So aku pergi check Gynaecologist. Doctor scan perut aku cam ibu mengandung check baby dalam iklan Susu tu ha. Dia ada la tanya berat aku ade naik secara mendadak ke? Aku ni teramat stress ke? Supplement ape aku makan? Ada sakit2 ke kalau period? Semua jawapan aku adalah TIDAK! Pengakhirannya, aku dapat la ubat Norculat. Total semua RM75.

Lepas jumpa Gynaecologist, aku gi berurut plus ruqyah. Mak cik tu sangat peramah dan baik. Dekat seksyen 17 tu je ha. Tak rasa sakit pun bila dia urut. Selesa sampai tertidur kau. Tau2 je dah 3 jam dia urut. By the way, aku nak buat urutan sengkak tapi mak cik tu cakap peranakan aku bukannye jatuh pun. Jadi dia urut satu badan sampai ke kepala dan diruqyah kan. Mak cik tu la Perawat Darul Syifa' nye. So rawatan aku jadi 2 in 1. Aku hulur je RM100 sebab xtau nak bagi berapa.

Akhir sekali aku jumpa Dermatologist kat DEMC. Sebab, mama dan adik aku dah lama kenal doctor tu jadi aku pun selesa dengan dia walaupun first time jumpa. Tapi tu la setakat suruh aku toleh kanan kiri tunjuk pipi pastu tunjuk lengan, kaki, kulit dada dan belakang badan then cerita camne jerawat terjadi. Terus dia diagnos aku aku eczema and acne. Ubat dia bagi, sabun cetaphil, antibiotic Doxycline, Epiduo (Benzyl Paroxide), Eumovate. Pastu congak sana sini kena la RM250. Aku hantar kucing aku kene kurap and fungus tu gi Veterinarian dengan charge RM200 lagi berbaloi sebab vet tu siap amik sample kulit kucing aku skodeng bawah microscope pastu suluh badan diorang guna ultraviolet ray pastu inject ubat kurap, bubuh ubat kutu bagi Omega oil n Antibiotic segala. Vet tu sanggup pegang kurap beza ngan Dermatologist aku yang xnak sentuh kulit aku yang berjerawat bereczema katenya. Huihhhh.. Rapport tu kurang la.. Aku lagi confident dengan Vet kucing aku.

Overall, semua rawatan yang telah aku terima OK. Lepas ni, bagi sesiapa yang ada masalah kulit berjerawat tu, aku sarankan beli cetaphil dan Oxy benzyl peroxide tu sebagai alternative ubat dermatologist aku bagi ni. Harga kat pharmacy lagi murah dari hospital bagi. Kalau ada eczema tu, jangan la bagai Pelembut/Pewangi pakaian cam Downy dll. Ia akan trigger eczema korang. Aku sarankan pakai sabun unscented and moisturizing like Dove. Kalau boleh mandi la dengan Pine Tar solution untuk kurangkan eczema. Pakai la baju cotton dan stay in cool place.

Ex-PEHPEH-tation

Assalammualaikum wahai pembaca yang rajin,

Dah tengok video Mat Lutfi yang terbaru? Tajuk dia sama dengan tajuk post kali ni.
EX-PEHPEH-TATION

Aku ada pengalaman la jugak pasal isu 'expectation' ni. Ya la, sebab nak jaga hati orang kan jadi aku buat la jugak apa yang diorang nak aku buat atau erti kata lain, buat apa yang diorang expect aku mampu buat.

Based on my experience, sekarang ni aku masih lagi study. Aku ambil course Bachelor Degree in Corporate Administration. Basically, course ni adalah preparation for professional certificate in Company Secretarial Practices. Apa beza Company Secretarial Practices ni dengan Secretary Office Management tu? Bezanya, bila aku dapat professional certificate ni, aku akan jadi Secretary kepada company bukan secretary kepada bos. Tapi, untuk jadi yang professional tu aku kene la apply for license. 

Nak di jadikan cerita, lepas aku SPM aku ni bukannya aware profession2 yang gempak2. Yang aku minat just bagi makan kucing, main dengan kucing, basuh berak kucing, sketching, drawing, colouring, painting, makan, tidur, makan, tidur. Yang isi kemasukan UPU tu pun mak cik aku, dia pun pilih la Foundation in Law. Pendapat aku langsung diorang tak mintak. Diorang expect aku memang tererrrr. So aku pergi buat Law kat UiTM Kuantan 2011. Lepas habis foundation, aku nak masuk degree ni. Lagi sekali, nak pilih course apa pun diorang yang decide. Pendapat aku haram tak mau dengar. Diorang expect aku boleh buat semua benda. Aku bukan la pelajar cemerlang yang tiap2 semester dekan dan aku pun belum pernah merasa gelaran tu. Kawan2 aku jer. Malu aku bak hang!! Tapi Alhamdulillah, sekarang ni pun dah semester last, pointer cgpa aku masih atas 3. Paper tak de yang sangkut. Kalau korang ingat course aku ni senang, course korang lagi susah, meh sini try la! 

Mane ni part expectation nye oi! Ok NOW, diorang plan lepas jer aku habis exam bulan 6/2015 ni, diorang EXPECT aku dah fly sambung MASTER DEGREE IN UNITED KINGDOM. Pendapat aku? Tak mampu den nak koba. HELLO, agak2 la nak suruh aku amik scholarship wey. Tengok qualification, aku tau memang aku lepas tapi percentage aku nak berjaya tu? Bukan nye aku bersaing dengan budak2 yang kurang bijak dari aku. Orang2 yang apply confirm lagi cemerlang dari aku. Nak sambung course ape? Aku tak nak berabis duit, tenaga, perah otak bagai kalau amik course yang orang EXPECT aku boleh buat. Aku nak sesuatu yang berbaloi lepas aku balik nanti. Aku nak ilmu yang aku boleh guna pakai membantu orang. Kalau ko amik medic, ko nak rawat orang kan? Ha macam tu la concept yang aku nak. Ni tak, diorang EXPECT aku fly takat nak cerita yang time raya ngan makcik kiah, jemah, kepoh tu yang aku belajar OVERSEA UK LAGI TU. 

Itu baru sikit bak hang, ni ha.. Diorang EXPECT aku masuk LONDON SCHOOLS OF ECONOMICS& POLITICAL SCIENCES. Bak hang unisti terbaek kat UK tu.

Aku sebenarnya dah penat penuhkan EXPECTATION diorang tu. Aku buat ni pun sebab nak please diorang. Aku try belajar dengan sungguh2 tapi korang sendiri nampakkan, aku takde sense of passion tu. Itu la sebab kenapa aku even tak pernah fail tapi aku jugak tak pernah jugak cemerlang. Korang ingat aku tak teringin ke nak dapat piala pelajar cemerlang tu? Graduate nanti dapat pakai selempang? 

Bila aku start speak out loud my self impression, diorang judge aku wey. Cakap aku tak respect diorang la. Diorang dah cari maklumat camne nak apply scholarship bagai tapi aku tetiba cakap:

" tak boleh ke I decide what I want to be, do with my own ability and effort. I want to be what I am able to be. No more begging, no more cries, no more letters. I just want to give a shot without any support and let fate speaks. Just this time, listen and let me decide."

Korang ingat bila aku cakap macam tu keputusan akan berubah? Tunggu la lepas bulan 6 nanti, aku post pasal ape pulak? Aku ni jenis yang ikut je la EXPECTATION orang, kalau itu memang rezeki aku, aku buat sebaik mungkin. Even benda tu memang bukan minat aku, tapi aku tetap buat yang terbaik. Demi apa? Demi senyuman diorang. Korang ingat, kalau aku tak buat semua diorang suruh tu, peluk cium kasih sayang semua bagai aku rasa ke? Diorang tu, kalau ko buat apa yang suruh baru la diorang nak suka kat kau, nak angkat ko lambung2. 

p/s: penulisan kali ini berlandaskan emosi semata-mata

Adakah Aku Seorang Mementingkan Diri?

Assalammualaikum dan Salam sejahtera semua.

Utamakan Aku Dari Dia

Dia

Katanya membesar kurang kasih,

dari ibu ayah juga saudara.

Dia,

Laju langkahnya masuk ke Kota,

kenal ragam pelbagai gaya.

Dia, 

Patah hatinya acap kali,

kepada saudara dia pergi.

Dia,

Katanya perhatian yang dicari,

tapi kesempatan lain kau menggali.

Katanya serba kurang,

saudaramu tambah biar menghilang,

Dia,

Terasa kurang habis didomba,

tidak pernah syukur mendapat sedekah.

Dia,

Akal panjang tapi serupa budak,

tanpa malu sering minta dan bentak.

Pandai putar kalau tersekat,

Pasti lepas kalau terikat, 

tapi serik satu tiada detik.

Wahai Dia,

Faham la kau, ibu bapaku jarang ku jumpa,

keluar kota seawal subuh,

mejelang pulang tiada sentuh.

Aku anaknya membesar dalam payah,

Kerana kesenangan mereka inginkan,

mereka korban jiwa dan raga.

 Mengertilah Kau,

Meminta dengan rasa malu,

kudrat ada dengan tenaga,

meniti rezeki dengan sendiri,

bukan hanya meminta-minta.

Wahai Dia,

Perlukah aku berkorban kali ini?

Aku juga kurang kasih,

tidak mungkin aku kongsi,

kasih mereka yang baru kutemui.

Walau kita titis sedarah,

tapi Aku hasil mereka,

Dia hanya kaum keluarga,

mana mungkin sama utama.

Aku anak mereka,

Dia adik semata.

Mengertilah Dia berhenti jadi beban,

bagi peluang Aku merasa,

jangan Dia rasa tersaing,

Kerana Aku patut diutamakan.

#p/s: Aku mencipta puisi ini kerana hilang tempat mengadu, mengapa ibuku lebihkan kasih pada adiknya yang besar panjang berbanding aku? Kasih itu aku tahu tapi fikirkan aku terlebih dahulu. Dulu menjauh kenapa kini mahu menjauh lagi? Tiada kepentingankah aku?

REVIEW: COLO-CLEANSE COSWAY SEMBELIT HILANG

Assalammualaikum,

Hari ni aku nak kongsi kisah aku mengambil colo-cleanse sebagai 'supplement'. Aku ingatkan sekali lagi, ubat herba ini bukan untuk kurus dengan cara melawas. Tapi ubat herba ini aku ambil sebab aku susah nak membuang. Kenapa susah nak membuang? Mungkin kolon aku kotor dan aku 'dehydrated' kurang minum air. 

Tanda-tanda usus atau kolon kita tidak bersih:

1. Sembelit
2. Selalu kentut
3. Sering sakit kepala
4. Susah nak hadam
5. Selalu rasa lesu dan tidak bertenaga
6. Mood yang tidak menentu dan mudah marah
7. Nafas dan najis berbau
8. Perut buncit
9. Selalu lapar
10. Wajah kusam
11. Gastrik
12. Radang hati (pedih ulu hati)
13. Ulser Peptic.
14. Cirit-birit
15. Kanser kolon

Sebab-musabab kena amik ORIYEN COLO-CLEANSE COSWAY:

Oriyen Colo-Cleanse adalah herba yang membersihkan kolon anda dan mengurangkan penyerapan kembali toksin-toksin dari sistem perkumuhan, melegakan sembelit, kembung perut dan menggalakkan pembuangan air besar. Ia melembut dan menbuang sisa terkumpul yang mengeras di dalam usus I

20307843 Oriyen Colo-Cleanse (30 Capsules)

Kandungan dalam ORIYEN COLO-CLEANSE:
Aloe vera, apricot seed, Chinese foxglove, Chinese skullcap, dong quai, liquorice root, peach seed and rhubarb.

Aku ambil 2 biji sebelum tidur dan minum banyak air. 

Hari pertama, tak ada sakit perut rasa nak membuang di tengah malam tapi bangun dari tidur terus cari toilet. Pagi tu dekat office, ade la 3 kali aku membuang tapi bukan cirit ok. 

Masuk hari kedua, 'on the way' ke office, perut aku memulas tahap kau ciritbirit. Aku tak dapat nak tahan terus cari petrol pam. Amik kau, siap ketuk pintu suruh pengguna pertama cepat sikit. Ya aku cirit plus pedas sebab semalam aku balun bubur sup ayam dengan sambal 3 sudu, burger daging cheese dengan kentang dan dinner sikit asal amik hati mak aku masak makan malam.

Hari ketiga dan keempat, aku amik sebiji jer sebab tahi aku dah lembut senang nak membuang. Tapi masalah aku ni, bila sering sangat ke tandas, rectum aku senang luka so bleeding la jadi nya. Tambah lagi makan pedas amikkau kalah darah period.

Minggu kedua, kadang-kadang amik sebab rectum aku masih berdarah dan aku period. Takut pulak nanti aku low platelet sebab darah keluar depan belakang*sila baca dengan sopan* 

Secara konklusi, herba ini telah berjaya mengatasi masalah sembelit aku.

P/s: check part ingrediant, aku highlight merah dong quai. In syaa Allah next post aku cerita pasal herba ni pulak! Herba yang sangat baik untuk wanita.

Kesihatan: Perut Sihat Otak Cergas

Assalammualaikum,

Baru tergerak hati nak menulis kembali hari ini. Almaklumlah, sibuk ber'intership' dan bakal memegang skroll ijazah sarjana In Syaa Allah. Berada dalam tahun akhir bergelar pelajar universiti ni memang banyak dugaan, ada naik turunnya, pasang surutnya, dan gelombang geloranya. Ha! Memandai aku putar itu ayat.. Jujur aku memang tidak 'workout' sekerap tahun-tahun lalu tapi aku 'cut down' itu makanan yang berlemak. Sepanjang tempoh 'busy like a bee' tu, aku hanya makan nasi separuh, ikan dan sup sayur. Time tengah 'craving' aku belanja la lebih beli salad, mayo, cheese, roti dan tuna kemudian 'toast' kan mereka dan mammmm!! Selain tu kalau 'dinner pulak seminggu sekali aku pekene TomYum Cendawan dari Kedai Fitdau kat Rasah tu. Perghh kuah dia pedas, sedap, pekat, melekat tahap maha-siswa kawww kawwww!! Tu la salah satu 'port' bebudak UiTM Seremban. Dah kenapa aku cerita pasal makanan pulak ni?

Ok, berbalik kepada landasan semula. Bermula je 'first day of internship' muka aku dah naik bintik nakal aka jerawat bukan nak merawat! Kebetulan aku 'start' pakai SKII (pencuci+essance). Kulit tu memang makin lembut tapi dah nak masuk sebulan aku pakai muka aku tak secantik 'crystal clear' macam dalam iklan pun? Cis!!! Kebetulan yang kedua, sejak balik rumah cuti sem, aku dah kurang minum air dan makan. Kalau dulu dekat U, 3 liter aku mampu habiskan tapi naik cuti tapi masuk 'intern' ni sebotol kecik jer mampu aku telan. Kebetulan yang ketiga, Mama sejak nak pencen ni makin jarang masak, nak2 bila dia dan baba pergi cuti rehat ke Turki, memang tidak berasap la dapur tu. Aku dengan hilang nafsu makan memang tak masuk dapur, lebih utamakan tidur dari makan. Penat kerja, heavy-traffic lagi eerggghhh!! So apa jadi dengan muka aku ni? Jerawat itu tumbuh dengan subur, lalu kering dan meninggalkan bekas. Kurang ajar, aku punya la baik dengan dia tak usik pun tapi dia tinggalkan bekas pulak. Tempat tebaik pulak tu dia 'mark'. Dekat dagu dan pipi aku ni ha! Aku tau la aku hitam manis dan tembam, jangan la buat aku makin 'hodoh' naik sem ni..

Hakikat sebenar disebalik kejadian ini mungkin salah aku sendiri. Pertama, kurang minum air. Kedua, kurang makan, kurang la zat dan serat. Ketiga, kurang buang air 'no. 2'. Rasanya dengan tidak bersenam ditambah lagi dengan amalan diet yang tak sihat, bertoksik la badan aku ni. Tu la sebab walaupun jarang makan tapi berat aku susah turun *angguk-angguk sendiri tanda setuju*.

Jadi apa penyelesaian yang aku ambil?
Pertama- minum air paling kurang 3 liter.
Kedua-makan banyak serat
Ketiga-makan Colo-cleanse dari Cosway
Keempat-banyakkan berjalan

Colo cleanse Cosway