I’ve been living for 22 years and seen some kinds of people but not as many as those who lived at 50. People from all races in Malaysia and other countries; but this is one kind of person that I can’t stand the most. With her superior position right now, it is a privilege for her I can’t say a word about her on her face. Why? Because she's teaching and giving knowledges to me. It is a Malaysian culture and Islamic teaching to respect your ‘Gurus’. My interpretation of respect are:
1- Never come to class after your Gurus.
2- Never challenge his/her words.
3- Never interrupt his/her teaching.
4- Never oppose his/her judgement.
5- Never question his/her.
6- Never stand for your right when he/she hell mad at you.
7- Never change what he/she stated even though it is affirmatively wrong.
8- Never correct his/her
9- Never reply when he/she’s been sarcastic.
10- Never to detest he/her.
I am broken inside. It is so hard being a student in this rigid system. I don’t want to be a ‘carbon-copy’ kind of graduate. I don’t want to be smart because I cramped the big-bulky books. I don’t want to just blindly follow a philosophy without knowing others.I don’t want to be an obedient follower and foolishly agree with what you saying without additional reading. I want to be an extraordinary person with a competitive advantages. A person with a unique and strong quality. I am not claiming to change the rule here, I want to break the rule and go beyond and be everything that a human being suppose to experience. It is okay to make mistakes so you can learn from it so that you are not tripping twice. Instead people nowadays, learn what is a ‘mistake’ then label it as a ‘mistake’ then avoid what you’ve been taught as a ‘mistake’.
Enough with what I want. Here is what I want from her; not what I want her to be:
1- I want her when I consult her regarding my course, she can objectively and kindly show me what I did is wrong and correct/guide me to a clearer path. Not sarcastically pointing out my wrongs and blame me for my mistakes and leave me hanging in cloud nine. Please correct me if I did wrong; don’t leave me hanging and see you for the next consultation and repeat the same mistake and then you can once again sarcastically put your SHOUTY words on my face. It is disgusting. I’m not digging the correct answer from your mouth because that would be your answer not my ‘answer’. I want at least you tell me some clues to my ‘answer’. Simple words, your expectation on how I’m going to answer.
2- I want her to respect us the student at least a little. I’m not expecting her to ‘pleasantly’ budging into our lives to show her interest and care. At least be considerate because as a student; our level of thinking and maturity are developing same goes to our knowledge. Don’t assume that our way of thinking would be a higher as you the Guru. If you want me to think as you do, kindly list out all your assumptions so that I can have a crystal clear clarification of your way thinking. Then our ‘thoughts’ are equal. I have doubt on that, if I think the way you think and I know as much as you know, then why should I be your student? Why don’t I be extra smarter than you then I become your Guru and you my student?
3- It is very disappointed when what you’ve working on; your report for example got big boldly red X. You done that because it was wrong, okay I can accept that, but explain to me why it is wrong and how should I make it right. Maybe you want me to show my effort. Hell yeah, I've been waiting for you for hours from my appointment. i've been stay up all night making sure my report would impress you. I've climbed the stairs to 7th floor just to be on time. Can you see at least a drop of my sweat? Can you see how many papers I've been used? How many trees been cut down because of that? Please explain, explain, explain, explain
P/s: It is my final semester and I want to graduate on time and I don't want to hate my Gurus and i've been emotional. Women got their senses! This writing is not meant to destroy anyone as it is just my small thought of having difficulties in understanding people. Still, I would always, truly, honestly respect my Gurus.
