Kitty 101: February Purchase

Assalammualaikum people!

Today I would like to introduce to yo'll one of my furry family member; Obol. It is a tom cat with white-not so long- fur and lots of cellulite. He is only 2 years old with 4.6kg( currently lost weight due to active life-style). 

I am Obol and I love makeup

I am a Durian lover and my record of Hall of Fame is 6 pieces of Durian

Yesterday, I went to shop his necessities like: 

1- Bentinoite ( Cat Litter)

Because of he lives in side the house( caged), he needs his own litter box. Due to economic recession, I was unable to buy the expensive- fragranced one. So I bought this giant Cat Litter @ RM 14.99/ 7.7kg each. My father would clean Obol's litter box everyday and replace the sand every 2 days.

2. Food

Obol has one weakness, He detests chewing. He prefers wet and paste-like foods. Whenever he saw  us eating something like bread, cookies, chips, chicken, fruits, veggies, nuts and candies, he will begging us to chew it for him. He will not touch it if it was in solid/hard form. 

Here is the list of wet food and the pricing:

a. Whiskas Adult Variety box@ RM 16.99/box ( it contains 12 pockets for RM1.41 each meaning I saved RM0.10 each compared purchasing it individually)

b. Prodiet Wet Food@ RM6.98/5 pockets ( I saved up RM0.10 each compared purchasing it individually)

c. Fancy Feast Broth@RM2.75/each (this is Obol first attempt to eat broth + tuna chunks , he doesn't interested as it has no strong temptation smells. 

So the total of his necessities is RM76.50 

P/s: Don't worry if you thought his wet food might not be enough as he will sourly eat the dry food when he is hungry.

Beauty 101: The Lazy Girl's Mascara

Assalammualaikum peeps,

Happy New Year 2016 everyone!!

'Stay Fit and Healthy, Make more money, Find a future Husband, and Be Beautiful' - my resolution

I am currently working as Special Officer at one of million dollar company. This job requires me to look neat, sleek and professional.

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Even I had downloaded thousands of makeup tutorials from makeup gurus like Lisa Eldridge, Wayne Goss and Karima McKimmie, unfortunately I don't have spare time to put on my makeup. I will leave to work looking like this everyday.

Lately, I've been thinking how to beautify myself with minimal effort and less makeup. I found out that by putting on mascara can change the way you look. It helps you to look more awake and fresh like you had the best sleep time ever.

When I reach my workplace, powder room is my first destination to prepare ma face yo'll. I would put on my face powder, doing my eyebrow, glide some kind of KylieLipJenner's lipstick onto my lips and lastly my mascara. This beautify effort would spare me only 5 minutes a-nd I concentrate more on mascara to accentuate my features.

Here is the step by step guidelines you may follow to apply mascara in 60 seconds; 

First of all, choose a good brand of mascara and you might need waterproof mascara for long lasting curls. There are few cosmetic brands offering good quality of mascara and receiving good reviews from the experts and I choose Maybeline Lashionista.

Secondly,  curl your eye lashes using your fingers. For your information, the heat from your finger will curl the lashes naturally but do not press so hard until hurting your eye balls.  Do you know, some of women are using spoon instead of lash curler? Yup, in case of emergency, get your spoon in action! Nah, I only need ma fingers.

Lastly, apply the mascara on your eye lashes with zig-zag direction to avoid clumping. Do not apply to much of mascara! 

 That's pretty much-it

I wish to be born beautiful

Beauty 101: December Purchase!

Assalammualaikum w.b.t readers,

It's already 25th and happy holiday but it is not too late for me to share this post. This time I would like to share most of random products; books, hair products and skin care.


1. Books

 Stay with Me

 is the third book of J Lynn's Wait For You series. This would be my countless times purchasing through online bookstore; Debook Room. It has the greatest services and pool of books. I bought this book early December and I had read it 3 times since then. I love the characters in this book but the most of this 21 years old girl. She had battled the same 'inner-strength' dilemma as me. Thus I felt quite close to the character named Calla Fritz. I only bought this book instead of the 2 earlier book of this series. I don't feel the urge to buy the whole series not because it wasn't a good book but I felt just enough to have only this. This material is only suitable for YOUNG ADULT AGED ABOVE 20. I give 4 out of 5 for this book. 

Secret Garden

by Johanna Basford is meant for adult who enjoyed colouring. Together with that, I bought along a 48 Watercolour Pencils by Faber Castell at MPH Bookstore for only RM88.90(both) with membership discount. Yup it sound childish but hell I don't give a damn for that. Am currently working out to have Watercolour pencil Albrecht Dürer and Colour Pencil Polychromos. 

2. Random things from Daiso 

right& left: Armpit Sweat Absorbent Pad

below: Cockroach Trap

All items were only RM5.30 each

 This is how the armpit pad looks like. You need to peel off the adhesive covers then patch it to the armhole of your cloth. This is a rare Japanese invention but I like it. As a patient of hyperhidrosis, it had saved me from embarrassment of wet armpit. I can now wear bright coloured cotton/satin/silk cloth with no wet patch under my arm.

3. Pampering Products

Left: Pinetarsol Gel as my itchy reliever when my eczema worsen.

Right: L'oréal EverCrème Sulfate free Shampoo.

My second tube of Pinetarsol Gel as it helps me a lot.  The L'oréal EverCrème Sulphate free Shampoo is suitable for my sensitive scalp. Please read more how sulphate free shampoo is good for your hair. It has a nice smell and leave my hair silky smooth, clean and fresh. I bought it at Watson(as the only distributor) for only RM29.90

                                     

Better Olive Soap Collection by Munif Hijjaz 

in Dead Sea Mud and Goat Milk. I bought it online at Munif Hijjaz store with only RM19.90 each. There are tons of advantages using olive oil in your daily life especially for your skin. For your additional info, this product is made in Palestine so I showed my solidarity to Palestinian and their products.

Tanamera Scrub Series

in Clarifying Hibiscus for only RM28. Tanamera is a local brand but very popular in Europe. It has wide range of skincare in very exclusive scents. You can pamper yourself just like in an exclusive spa but in DIY way.

I stored it in a small container and placed it in the bathroom. The scrub smells nice and works wonders to my skin. Leave my skin smooth and moisturised.

That is all for this entry. Salut!!

My Every First: #No 2 Save a Life

Assalammualaikum w.b.t readers,

How was my first 'first time' story? Boleh la!! Ceh...Tak de feeling langsung... FINE!!

My next story would be my first encounter on saving a life. I'm giving some clues here. An animal. Hairy. In the middle of a road. Bleeding. Unconscious. What is it?


It was a monkey.

The story started like this. Once upon a time,  I was already late to go to work in one sunny Saturday. I drove like a drunk driver but in much controlled way. I took my usual route to go to work. However,  when I reached one junction after traffic light, I noticed a body of unconscious male monkey in the middle of the road. Most of the vehicles tried to avoid from hitting the monkey. My heart started to sink. I can't concentrate on my driving. My head kept telling me that I should pull over and moved that monkey to the side. I kept telling myself that I was the Chosen One. I was granted with this kind of thought that not everyone has.

What I did was, yeah, I pulled over even though I was affirmatively late to go to work. I ran to the middle of the road as fast as I could in my high heels. Then I grabbed its rough hairy hands without thinking of our safety and I pulled it under a tree by the side of the road. It took me a few long breaths to stabilise myself. I was shaken. It was my first time doing this and I was afraid and proud at the same time. No word can describe my real feeling at this time. 

It still breathing weakly and warm. I laid it nicely and left with strong gut and intuition that it would be just fined once it regained its consciousness. When I went back to my car, I ain't drive straight away. I watched the monkey for a couple of minutes and tears sprung from my eyes. I cried because there   was a female monkey climbed down the tree and got closer to the unconscious body of its family. The female monkey then touched it slowly and convincingly to wake the innocent hit and run victim. I can't no longer wait and I started the engine. 

As I past the monkey slowly, the female monkey looked attentively to me through the window. I gave a goodbye wave after it sent me a grateful thanks look. My heart sunk and my tears sprung free. Later that evening, I went back to the location but the body was no longer there. I can conclude here the monkey has regained its consciousness and lived happy and healthy. Every morning I watch the group of monkeys hanging from the tree to tree without failure to pray on their safety and health.

YES I BELIEVED I AM THE CHOSEN ONE

My Every First : #No 1 Unggun Api

Assalammualaikum dear readers,

I am pretty sure there would always first time in everything. So I would like to dedicate my every first time story with you guys. My stories might be unnecessarily written periodically. I'll just write anything that came across in my head. Some might be hilarious, boring, lame, ordinary and perfect. Perhaps, I should write in Bahasa Melayu though.

Unggun Api Pertama

Dulu masa tingkatan 3, aku pernah turut serta dalam kem kepimpinan badan beruniform. Ceh!! Aku joined bukan sebab aku ade pangkat dalam PBSM tapi sebab aku pengerusi kelab Seni Lukis. Aku tak ingat tempat tu di mana tapi yang pasti tempat tu ada dataran kawad yang besar dikelilingi hutan, ada sungai, tempat pacak khemah serta monkey tent dan ade flying fox. Aku memang cepat adapt dengan surrounding so tak kesan sangat dengan aktiviti lasak cumanya, aku paling tak suka kalau kena berkawad. Terik mentari aku boleh tahan tapi aku lemah bab koordinasi. Aku memang tak ingat steps. Ajar la aku perlahan mana pun, dari A ke  Z tapi bila masuk tang Z then aku akan lupa step A-Y.

Aku paling suka satu aktiviti yang dipanggil 'survival skills'. Part nak makan apa dalam hutan memang tarik perhatian aku. Lepas dipecahkan mengikut kumpulan, kami diajar macam mana nak pancing ikan, siang ikan dan masak ikan. Sebelum itu, unggun api haruslah didirikan terlebih dahulu. Aku ditugaskan untuk buat unggun api tersebut which is my first time kot. So ditakdirkan harus  mencari ranting-ranting kayu dan daun kering. Aku tahu rupa ranting kayu, batang kayu dan batang balak. Tetapi aku tak tahu rupa rumah semut dalam batang kayu! Aku dengan gigihnya kutip semua ranting yang aku jumpa, tebas sana tebas sini sehinggalah aku tertebas rumah semut dalam batang kayu. 

At first, aku tak nampak makhluk kecil tu tapi once aku dah letak atas tanah, selang 5 minit, group jiran-jiran dah mula ketepek sana ketepek sini garu sini garu sana. Rupa-rupanya kena gigit semut yang keluar dari batang kayu aku. Situasi menjadi agak kecoh di situ dan masing-masing sibuk maki "eh nate, mano pulok mari nyo? Tadi dok nampak sekor pun" " alamak, banyak semut la kat sini! Habis naik satu badan" "Mana datang semut-semut ni, Ya Allah!!" "Arrghhhhhh". Aku ketawa dalam hati jer  sebab nak cover perbuatan keji aku. Sapa nak ngaku wey kalau ko punca bala menimpa. 

Yippy.. Unggun api aku menjadi dengan sekali zapppp percikan api ditambah pula bahan kering yang asli dan organik. Aku memang tak kan bunuh serangga or binatang so aku tolak tepi batang kayu a.k.a rumah semut tu. Tetapi, teammate aku yang campak kayu tu dalam unggun. So even semut-semut tu mati terbakar tapi bukan aku yang bakar. By the way, aku tak lalu makan ikan yang dipancing tadi so aku bagi portion aku pada orang. Diorang sangat menikmati kesedapannya sebab diorang tak cukup makan. Khemah aku penuh makanan macam kedai sebab aku dengan Syikin sangat bijak orangnye. Khemah yang sepatutnya berenam, hanya tinggal kami berdua sahaja. Jadinya, khemah kami agak luas, sejuk, selesa dan bersih.

Nota kaki: pengalam unggun api pertama aku- selesai

The Aftermath of Making Big Decision

Assalammualaikum w.b.t readers,

Have you ever NOT making any decision in one day? Sure not. We use to make decision everyday and every minute. Starting right we jump out of the bed, we will start making decisions; whether to take a shower or not, what should we wear today, what breakfast to eat, heading to work by car or subway and the list is endless until we going back to bed later that night.

However, have you ever make any big decision but it turns out bad? I'm pretty sure most of us sure did. Some might have dated the wrong person, some might have married the wrong spouse, some might have worked in wrong company, some might have studied in wrong School. At first, we thought we had chosen the best solution that will not jeopardise others and change our life but after we took that decision, then we realised we are doomed.

Frankly speaking, yes I had encountered this situation. I made up my mind based on what I felt a right and the best decision to me and to my family. What I did was to turn down my Master offers from University of Kent and University of Aberdeen in International Relation with International Law. My reasons for doing that was because I am not ready to get out of my comfort zone. Going abroad alone is a big challenge for me and it's like eating a slice of chocolate cake every morning to lose weight. Second, I am afraid the sponsorship I received might not enough for the whole semester due to economic recession and low currency of Malaysian Ringgit. Third, I am not a bright student and I do not own an X factor that could impress my Professors. I am not sure whether I don't own it or I owned it but I don't realise it. Fourth, I am not doing it for myself. Before this, I live for somebody else and I fulfil their expectation but doing Master Degree in the UK is not a game which I don't want to gamble.

BUT what happened after I decided not going? First, my mom hates me. Second, my aunty hates me. Third, my mom hates me because my aunty hates me and she is angry with my mom. Fourth, my friends left me because I am a failure. Fifth, all relationships gone. Sixth, I am not at home in my own home. Seventh, my life getting lonelier.  Eighth, I have to work for living. Ninth, I can't focus at my work. Tenth, I am afraid of making any big decision anymore.

Beauty 101: July Purchase!

Assalammualaikum uolls,

My last post was about my emptied products. This time I would like to share with products I had purchased for the month of July.  Most of the products I purchased were to help banishing my body acne and eczema.

This time I had purchased Naruko Apple Seed & Tranexamic Acid, Dermalogica Conditioning Body Wash and Dermalogica Super Sensitive Shield aka Sunblock.

My acne had improved but not the scars. The scars might take times to disappear hence, I bought this product to brighten up and fade the my acne scars. I bought it few weeks ago and I can see my skin had brighten a bit and the scars had fade away but not completely fade away. This product contained natural ingredients as brightening and firming agent. I did notice the firming effect without leaving tight effect to your face. 

The second product is this Dermalogica Super Sensitive Shield spf 30 in UltraCalming range. It is quite pricey I do agree with that. However, what make it worth buying for is the physical protection against UVA. When most of sunblocks in the market gave you only chemical protection, this product protect your skin physically. It contained substances that won't clogged your pores which is good for those who suffered acne. Second reason I bought this sunblock is because I ran out my MD Dermatics Sunblock spf 40 which is also worth buying for. Even though it quite pricey but small travel size can last for 6 months with everyday use. Hopefully the Dermalogica sunblock can last as longer as the MD Dermatics. The Dermalogica 50ml sunblock cost me RM253 while the MD Dermatics 30ml cost me RM98. Both price were after discount deduction.

The last product I bought today is this Dermalogica Conditioning Body Wash. Again this product is quite pricey for a 473ml worth at RM186. Believe me, I have been fighting eczema and body acne. For somebody in my situation, we are dying to have an itchy-free skin and flawless skin. Thus, I am willing to buy this product. This is a soap-free gel with Pro-Vitamin B5 which leaving your skin feeling soft and silky. It contained Tea Tree, Lemon, Eucalyptus and Rosemary which will help you banish the back and chest acne. It also contained soothing essential oils of Sandalwood, Lavender, Orange and Clary Sage leaving you with heaven and earth scent. It has been formulated without artificial fragrances and colours that is why it is colourless as shown.

These are products for the month of July which I'll be using to banish my eczema and body acne. Again, I did not get ant sponsored from brand mentioned here. This writing is based on my readings and consultation and my journey to fight my problems. I am here to help those who had suffered the same problem as me.

Beauty 101 : Emptied Products June

Assalammualaikum,

How is your Ramadhan? Hopefully you are still in a good shape and fit alhamdulillah. Remember, everything depends on your nawaitu. What about mine? Most of the Ramadan weeks I spent alone at my Uni because I had examination which turn out to be my last examination for my bachelor degree In Syaa Allah. Only a few days of Ramadan left so I would like to spend with my family and friends. So, after the last paper ended, I packed my luggages and boxes of things and went home.

Back to our topic, it is about what products I've been consumed and finished up for the past month. I dedicated this entry for those who have similar problems as I do. As a recap, I have acne prone skin and eczema. My acne is just on my face but also my body. I currently going for consultation with Dermatologist at DEMC Shah Alam and I've been prescribed with oral medicines and some creams for acne and eczema. 

During the treatment, apart from using what I was prescribed with, I had purchased some products at local drugstore aka Pharmacy. My eczema is not that bad but sometimes I use to get terrible itchy day when the weather is prickling hot, my room is dusty for example. I had purchased Sebamed Shower Gel and Ego Pinetarsol gel. As for my acne prone face, I bought Naruko Tea Tree Purifying Clay Mask  & Cleanser.

This limited edition Sebamed Shower Gel with Grapefruit is a soap-free cleansing gel. I loved the smell; it is so refreshing with grapefruit smell. It freshen me up after long hectic day. It contained 100% biodegradable and environment friendly. The pH 5.5 was ideal for my sensitive skin and supported skin's moisture balance.

The next product I bought was this Naruko Tea Tree Purifying Clay Mask. In order to speed up my acne healing process I thought this product would be good. I had noticed it did reduced my pimples without drying out my skin. Clay is a good substance to absorb access oil/sebum on your face. It can be used as scrub also. The smell was refreshing with tea tree and it had cool sensation.

The last product I bought is this Ego Pinetarsol gel. It relieved my inflamed and itchy skin. The pH 6 maintained my skin's moisture. It smelt sharp pine but acceptable. I can't leave without this gel when the disaster itchy day came. It can be purchased in gel and also shower liquid foam.

  In a nutshell, I successfully emptied these products. All of these product had help me with eczema and acne. I did not get sponsored or what so ever. This writing was based on my thorough readings and consultation.

 P/S: sorry for the bad images, I'm not good at taking pictures.

4 Hari 3 Malam dari Kota Kinabalu ke Ranau- Part 2

Assalammualaikum w.b.t

4/6/2015

Malam tadi aku tido pukul 12 a.m sebab dah terbiasa tapi di Sabah, pukul 12 sunyi dia macam pukul 3 pagi. Subuh pukul 4.30 a.m wey, kalau kat semenanjung aku bangun subuh pukul 6.30 a.m kat sini matahari dah naik macam pukul 8 pagi. Kaum2 ibu dah terpekik terlolong kejut bangun sebab pukul 8 a.m tu kami akan bertolak ke Kundasang. Memandangkan cousins aku yang lain ada komitmen kerjaya, hanya abang Iju saja yang turut dalam makan angin kali ni. Tunggu punya tunggu, dari pukul 7 pagi sampai pukul 9 pagi batang hidung dia pun aku tak nampak. Rupanya, dia tunggu kawan dia a.k.a pemandu arah tapi orang tu tak datang pun akhirnya, kembali la si Iju keseorangan. Sebab mak aku jenis cerewet, kami bertolak dulu ke Pantai Likas tinggalkan Iju. Then 30 minit kemudia, Iju pun sampai dengan kereta racing, wira merah-hitam. Aku, cik wee dan Naqib menjadi penumpang terhormat dia. Yang lain naik kereta sewa Avanza. Sepanjang perjalanan tu aku tak lelapkan mata pun sebab nak tengok suasan flora dan fauna juga pembangunan sekitar. Laju jugak si jejaka berusia 26 tahun ni bawa kereta menuju ke banjaran!

Google's courtesy

Perjalanan ke Poring yang merentasi, Silau, Kundasang dan Ranau mengambil masa 2 jam. Memang jalan dia berliku macam nak naik Cameron Highland tapi tak selekoh dia tak setajam jalan Cameron tu dan lorong dia besar la jugak. Kami berhenti berehat di Kinabalu Park dengan bayaran rm3 satu kepala. Dalam tu ada Rafflesia tapi kitorang tak masuk lebih ke dalam sebab kejar masa. Semua orang mengisi perut masing dengan leftover-heated nasi ayam malam tadi. Aku tak makan sebab sibuk cari toilet dan air dia sejuk!

google's courtesy

Kami meneruskan perjalan ke Poring yang terletak dihujung merentasi Kundasang dan Ranau. Kaum ibu2 kalau dah nampak sayur-sayur segar, bunga dan buah-buahan tepi jalan tu sibuk suruh pull over. Membeli- belah la masing2 dengan segala macam buah dan kerepek. Aku tertarik dengan satu buah namanya Lemak Manis. Rasanya macam avokado tapi warnanya kuning nangka dan rasanya manis2 kelat. Kami berhenti solat di Masjid.

Di Poring, kami masuk ke Hot Spring dengan bayaran masuk RM 3. Kawasan mata air tu jauh sikit ke dalam hutan dan kena jalan kaki tapi kemudahan semua lengkap. Laluan pun cantik dan ada jambatan merentasi air sungai. Baba dan Pak We tak masuk sebab Pak We tak boleh jalan jauh sebab dia strok separa badan tapi dia gigih jugak layan kerenah aku nak ke sini. Mama cakap kitorang pernah ke sini 18 tahun lalu. Aku hanya ingat aku pernah mandi kolam air panas and abang aku pernah rebus telur ayam tapi I can't remember where. Baba cakap kawasan ni dah banyak berubah.

Next stop, kami ke Desa Cattle (Sabah) Sdn Bhd. Tempat ni merupakan kawasan penternakan Lembu Susu terletak di lembah menghijau yang terbentang luas. Tempat ni kau boleh feeling ala-ala New Zealand gitu. Banyak jugak pelancong locals and foreigners datang dan banyak jugak lembu hitam putih macam iklan Dutch Lady tu. Tempat ni ada beberapa aktiviti antaranya memerah susu dan beberapa lagi tapi itu saja yang aku ingat. Bayaran masuk dengan berkereta RM 5 per head. Nak beraktiviti ada bayaran lain dikenakan. Disebabkan kami datang pukul 4 so tak boleh beraktiviti sangat sebab dia tutup pukul 4.30. Lepas shopping susu plain and chocolate, kami bertolak balik ke KK. Supposely nak singgah ke tempat ikan kecik2 gigit kaki tu tapi tak sempat. 

Google's courtesy

Sepanjang perjalanan balik tu, laluan turun mula di tutupi kabus. Aku apa lagi, jakun sekejap bukak tingkap feeling nak pegang awan. Aku rasa kabus tu memang awan sebab dia moist ada water droplet and sejuk. Tiba pada satu spot ni, aku nampak puncak Gunung Kinabalu donkey ears tu so aku suruh Iju berhenti tepi jalan. Rezeki kitorang sebab Allah buka awan2 yang menutupi puncak tu nak bagi kami tengok. Memang jelas pemandangan tu dan cantik. Subhanaallah!!

My sis courtesy

Aku terlelap seketika sampai ke Silau dan aku cipta satu teori kenapa tempat ni di panggil Silau. Sepanjang perjalan turun, matahari memang sebaris dengan mata kau dan menyilaukan lalu akhirnya tempat ni dapat nama Silau. Selalunya matahari terbenam warna jingga tapi maybe sebab ada kabus tadi so ade la pembiasan- prism-matahari tu jadi warna putih.

Sampai di Kota Belut pukul 7.30 dan Iju bawa kami ke Restoran Steamboat tapi sebab warga emas ndak lalu makan jadi dia bawa kami ke restoran lain. Butterprawn dia perghh.. nyaman! Di sini, kita bulih pilih mau udang kopek atau berkulit. Sampai di homestay, mama suruh Iju bawa Pak Long tidur sini. Alang-alang Iju tidur sini, Naqib minta di bawa jenjalan sekitar KK. Dia pun on saja. Kami berempat, aku, Ala, Naqib dan Iju lepak sekejap di Tanjung Aru pukul 11pm. Pantainya tengah surut dan gelap, hanya diterangi lampu kedai2. Kami buka kasut dan jalan di gigi air sepanjang pantai yang bersih dan jernih sambil makan kacang rebus. 

Habis main pantai, kami ke bandar pula. Time sudah pukul 12am so semua premis perniagaan sudah tutup. Kami round2 lama la jugak, aku nampak ada bangunan mewah dan shopping mall. Kami singgah ke Kampung Air, Api-Api dan last stop di tempat tinjau kat atas bukit berdekatan dengan Padang Merdeka. Nampak la most of the cities at night with neon light. Then balik ke rumah pukul 1 pagi. 

4 Hari 3 Malam Dari Kota Kinabalu ke Ranau- Part 1

Assalammualaikum w.b.t

3/6/2015 

Seminggu yang lepas, aku dapat khabar dari mama yang Mak Long aku dah meninggal. Seingat aku, arwah memang seorang yang menjaga kesihatan dan cergas. Selama 22 tahun aku hidup baru 3 kali aku jumpa arwah. Pak Long sekeluarga memang menetap di Putatan, Sabah dan kami kerabat yang lain memang asal semenanjung. Alang-alang aku tengah cuti seminggu and adik aku tengah cuti sekolah, tetiba mama ajak jenguk keluarga pak long di sana. Kami bertolak pada hari Rabu 3/6/2015 dan balik hari ni, Sabtu 6/6/2015.

First time jumpa keluarga Pak Long masa umur aku 4-5 tahun, 18 tahun yang lalu. Baba, Mama, abang dan aku, turun ke Miri-Labuan- Kota Kinabalu. Apa yang aku ingat kejadian 18 tahun yang lalu ialah, pengalaman menaiki pesawat ringan yang kecik, naik feri/bot di Labuan then aku mabuk laut muntah dalam bekas kotak Popcorn, menginap di rumah Pak Long yang belakang rumahnya adalah laut! Anak perempuan pak long dukung aku dekat belakang semata-mata nak pergi kedai depan rumah yang aku ingat ada banyak balang kaca besar mengandungi apa ntoh then mandi pantai dengan anak pak long yang seramai 8 orang  then kaki aku tertoreh terumbu karang. Auuchhh sakit gila wa cakap sama lu tambah pedih lagi bila kena air masin. Sepanjang aku membesar, ada la jugak anak pak long yang study di semenanjung tinggal dengan keluarga aku walaupun sekejap. Serious, aku ingat-ingat lupa pasal benda ni.

Kami turun ke Sabah bersama 2 keluarga yang lain, Pak We(pak cik ketiga) & Mak We dan Cik Wee(mak cik ke 6) & Naqib. Naik Mas Airline sebab time tu harga nya murah dari Air Asia. Sesampai di KKIA, Kak Yin, Abang Eeit, Kak Yin dan Abang Ipin(anak2 pak long) jemput kitorang dan terus ke rumah Pak Long. Rumah yang aku datang 18 tahun lalu sudah banyak berubah. Dulu tak banyak rumah di sekitarnya tapi sekarang sudah banyak. Dulu belakang rumah tu adalah laut tapi sekarang air dah surut so ade penempatan rumah lain di belakang rumah tu. Sampai je sana, anak pak long yang lain sambut, Abang Iju dan Memo plus Pak Long. Duduk berborak, minum2 then kami solat jemaah di Surau berdekatan then terus ke kubur Mak Long. Nak tahlil di situ tapi cuaca terik sangat sampai ada pokok yang terbakar. Kami terus ke bandar untuk makan tengah hari di Restoran Sri Keningau( restoran kenalan family kami). Mama belanja semua orang, mula2 aku ingat anak pak long ni sombong sebab tidak pernah nak turun semenanjung tapi aku silap menilai. Mula-mula tu janggal la antara kami cousin2 yang tak pernah berjumpa ni tapi lama-lama, bila aku rajin bertanya itu ini, diorang okay saja.

Lepas lunch, Kak yin terus bawa kami ke homestay. Ya Allah, rumah tu cantik tapi lokasi dia betul2 bawah laluan kapal terbang landing kau! Selang 5 minit ade jer kapal atas kepala kau. Kapal Air Asia la paling kuat bunyi nya. Tapi, bukan tugas aku nak jadi jakun tengok kapal terbang landing memanjang! Malam tu kami buat tahlil untuk arwah dekat homestay kitorang je. Most of anak2 pak long ada bersama family kecik masing2. Tak sangka aku, Memo yang muda setahun dari aku dah bertunang, cantik pulak tu tunang dia tu. Wife abang Eeit masak nasi ayam Hainan, wa cakap sama lu memang terbaik, nyaman! Kalah semua nasi ayam hainan yang pernah aku rasa di semenanjung. Antara kami cousins2 memang janggal nak bercakap tapi diorang okay je dengan kaum mak2 bapak2. 

Then tido la apa lagi. Qada' tido sebab flight pagi tadi pukul 6 pagi!

Sarcasm Is The Lowest Mean Of Wits #have some Consideration!

Hi and Assalammualaikum w.b.t

I’ve been living for 22 years and seen some kinds of people but not as many as those who lived at 50. People from all races in Malaysia and other countries; but this is one kind of person that I can’t stand the most. With her superior position right now, it is a privilege for her I can’t say a word about her on her face. Why? Because she's teaching and giving knowledges to me. It is a Malaysian culture and Islamic teaching to respect your ‘Gurus’. My interpretation of respect are:

1-   Never come to class after your Gurus.

2-   Never challenge his/her words.

3-   Never interrupt his/her teaching.

4-   Never oppose his/her judgement.

5-   Never question his/her.

6-   Never stand for your right when he/she hell mad at you.

7-   Never change what he/she stated even though it is affirmatively wrong.

8-   Never correct his/her

9-   Never reply when he/she’s been sarcastic.

10- Never to detest he/her.

I am broken inside. It is so hard being a student in this rigid system. I don’t want to be a ‘carbon-copy’ kind of graduate. I don’t want to be smart because I cramped the big-bulky books. I don’t want to just blindly follow a philosophy without knowing others.I don’t want to be an obedient follower and foolishly agree with what you saying without additional reading. I want to be an extraordinary person with a competitive advantages. A person with a unique and strong quality. I am not claiming to change the rule here, I want to break the rule and go beyond and be everything that a human being suppose to experience. It is okay to make mistakes so you can learn from it so that you are not tripping twice. Instead people nowadays, learn what is a ‘mistake’ then label it as a ‘mistake’ then avoid what you’ve been taught as a ‘mistake’.

Enough with what I want. Here is what I want from her; not what I want her to be:

1- I want her when I consult her regarding my course, she can objectively and kindly show me what I did is wrong and correct/guide me to a clearer path. Not sarcastically pointing out my wrongs and blame me for my mistakes and leave me hanging in cloud nine. Please correct me if I did wrong; don’t leave me hanging and see you for the next consultation and repeat the same mistake and then you can once again sarcastically put your SHOUTY words on my face. It is disgusting. I’m not digging the correct answer from your mouth because that would be your answer not my ‘answer’. I want at least you tell me some clues to my ‘answer’. Simple words, your expectation on how I’m going to answer.

2- I want her to respect us the student at least a little. I’m not expecting her to ‘pleasantly’ budging into our lives to show her interest and care. At least be considerate because as a student; our level of thinking and maturity are developing same goes to our knowledge. Don’t assume that our way of thinking would be a higher as you the Guru. If you want me to think as you do, kindly list out all your assumptions so that I can have a crystal clear clarification of your way thinking. Then our ‘thoughts’ are equal. I have doubt on that, if I think the way you think and I know as much as you know, then why should I be your student? Why don’t I be extra smarter than you then I become your Guru and you my student?

3- It is very disappointed when what you’ve working on; your report for example got big boldly red X. You done that because it was wrong, okay I can accept that, but explain to me why it is wrong and how should I make it right. Maybe you want me to show my effort. Hell yeah, I've been waiting for you for hours from my appointment. i've been stay up all night making sure my report would impress you. I've climbed the stairs to 7th floor just to be on time. Can you see at least a drop of my sweat? Can you see how many papers I've been used? How many trees been cut down because of that? Please explain, explain, explain, explain

P/s: It is my final semester and I want to graduate on time and I don't want to hate my Gurus and i've been emotional. Women got their senses! This writing is not meant to destroy anyone as it is just my small thought of having difficulties in understanding people. Still, I would always, truly, honestly respect my Gurus.